Hi everyone I am new here tonight as I am a worried wreck, not for me but my 2 boys. I have simple cysts on both kidneys pancreas liver and more. In short the largest cyst is 12cms on my right kidney and I also have another which is 6cms. I am only 8stone and they take up a lot of space. I have had chronic back pain and for 2 years having had morphine fired at me every 2 weeks along with tramadol and now recently replaced tramadol for Gabapentin, I was given a routine CT scan - eight days later on the Friday I got a letter to go for an. Ultrasound on the Monday! So I knew something was up. I have chronic pain and severe nausea which I had put down to the cysts. I took sick after Christmas and my body couldn’t fight it and I ended up with a resting heart rate of 148 and hospitalised on 3000 mg of antibiotics a day and I lost over half a stone. I am self employed so I can take a back seat in the family business a little and I was of a month and have never felt right ie my nausea and pain got even worse. Since having my ultrasound where the lady doing it let slip I was called back as there was a solid mass on my kidney I am having meltdowns - not for me - but the thought of my boys not having me around - last night i felt a hard golf ball size lump just below my ribs on my back and well that was it I lost it. This limbo is killing me and my husband comes across as uninterested and I know it’s not that. I know he’s worried and doesn’t want to have to talk about it or think about it. How much longer will I have to wait and should I call my specialist and tell them what I found last night? I was hoping I would get a letter this week but I don’t know mentally how much more I can take. I go to work and I spend the rest of my time with my boys. I don’t goniut and they are my absolute world along with my husband. Please can anyone offer any words of advice. I am trying to remain calm but it’s so hard when I’m the limbo stage - thank you alll so much in advance and sorry for the long post Elli x