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Hello

I'm awaiting an ultrasound for a raised neck lymph node, I've been referred on the 2 week pathway, after waiting and watching for 4 weeks.  I had a telephone assessment yesterday with ENT and I'm feeling so scared, I feel so anxious that I sense that I can't swallow, this came on suddenly (I've had this on occasion before when highly stressed). I don't have any signs of infection

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Hey everyone 

so post appointment it was onlt 4mm my lymph node so not even enlarged?! But anyways I've said I want ful removal of the node for my peace of mind so booked in for that I really pushed to have this done. Then I'll get full peace of mind once and for all, hoping the size means it cannot be cancer if it's only 4mm? just praying it's all good news after I get it out xx

Emily, did the ENT doctor provide reassurance and confirmed the diagnosis based on the ultrasound.  I can imagine you are feeling a little relieved that there's an agreement to remove the lymph node, were you given a timeframe for this?  Xx

That's so kind Jolamine and it is very appreciated. 
I know what you mean about the weather, it's so chilly, the heating is on and I'm wearing a scarf (I work from home and it's essential for cooler days like these). I have a few plants to go in the garden but the ground has been rock hard, we definitely need the rain for a little while. Xx

Yes he said that it really couldn't be sinister it's so small and my constant poking at it makes it seem bigger than it really is! The ultrasound can pick up size and any malignant features but you know health anxiety I'm like it still could come back as cancer but if it's 4mm cancer it's the smallest cancer ever and only I would get it xx

I'm just really happy to have it out and to stop fiddling with it all the time will be a great way to feel better! Still really scared though xx 

Do you mind asking what size it felt like to the touch, I can imagine that parameters can feel blurred when it's irritated? The waiting is so tough, isn't it? It feels like being in limbo and everything is on pause xx

I'd say it feels like a pea size!  Or like a small jewellery bead and it's quite soft sometimes gets hard the more I irritate it. The waiting is awful but I'm just glad it's not very big as I had thought and like once I have it taken out I can start to move on whatever the outcome but I'm hoping good I really am Xx 

I really hope you're ok! I know when you wake up first thing in the morning you feel awful it's the toughest time for me it really hits me like this thing is still in my neck xx 

Thank you Emily

irs a lovely blue sky out my window and that makes me smile. I am trying hard not to get too anxious, although I recognise that I do have a few moments during the day. How are you feeling after the news yesterday, it sounds very promising?  I would say my lymph is about 1cm, but maybe not consistently so. I have stopped prodding it, as it seems to react to touch.  The ultrasound is a week today and it will be another week until I have the ENT follow up telephone appointment. Xx

It's lovely and sunny here too! it's such a nice day and I have two days off after tomorrow so I'm really excited for that:) but I'm feeling ok I have my moments throughout the day where I worry so much. But 4mm has to be good? Im just trying really hard to not think badly and just can't wait for the lymph node to be removed from my neck!! Please let me know how everything goes with you Xx 

It's lovely and sunny here too! it's such a nice day and I have two days off after tomorrow so I'm really excited for that:) but I'm feeling ok I have my moments throughout the day where I worry so much. But 4mm has to be good? Im just trying really hard to not think badly and just can't wait for the lymph node to be removed from my neck!! Please let me know how everything goes with you Xx