Hi there ...

This is the scariest time ... just a couple of weeks that seem like forever... dreading it, yet wanting it over ... we've all been there ... and you know if you want to cry or scream, or yell at life .. you do it .. holding those feelings in, help no one ... it's about balance ... get those feelings out ... process them ... then carry on with those everyday tasks ... and it's weird how things go on as normal around you, when you feel your world's turned up side down ... but keeping busy really does help ...

And as far as I know, the meeting to talk about results is done for everyone ... so don't take it as read ... fingers crossed for a good result ...  Chrissie x

Thankyou so much for your reply. 

Have had my in laws here all weekend and been out for a meal with them and my parents. Trying to behave like everything is okay. I've found out I'm a pretty good actress. Work today so again painted on my smile. 

Son is back at school tommorow so have some time just for me. Think that will be my time to get it all out of my system. My hubbie is great and is trying to be supportive and loving but sometimes I don't even want to be hugged. Then I feel bad because he's going through this too. Gosh its such a roller coaster. I can't stand the not knowing. I can cope if I know what I'm dealing with. Fingers crossed for the phone call soon with a date for results. 

Hi there ...

Remember 8 to 9 out of 10 lumps are o.k ... my first 4 call backs from mamorgrams were all clear ... so I'm keeping everything crossed for ya ..

When I was were you are now, I pushed everyone away .. even my son who was panicking. . I shut myself away .. and cried for ages ... but once it was all out, I could let them back in and I was ready to take on what ever the result was on my 5th call back ...

Now I've learned feelings are better out then in .. and to then embrace those we love .. coz they really do get you through ... and in some ways, they feel it even more ... coz there's nothing they can do but just be there ... but I'm so glad l did both ... let it out , and let them back in ... 

I had my masectomy in 2017 July ... l had a grade 3 ... and I'm still here doing really well ... along with lots of us Brest lasses on here .. so whichever way it goes, let us know ... coz we love good news , and can offer a hand to hold to get you through ... Chrissie x

Thankyou so much.

I'll let you know how I get on. I'm taking some Positive in that although the lump I found is big and she said its quite deep in the breast tissue the ultrasound showed my lymph nodes are clear. So that means it's not spread if it is nasty.

Thankyou for replying and I'm so pleased for you that your recovery is going well. X

Hi Tracy,

Try and stay positive and stick to the facts - 80% of lumps found are benign and the rest you don’t know yet. I know it’s easier said than done. 

I had mammogram and two biopsies last Wednesday and I’m going to get my results this Wednesday. The waiting is the worst I’m sending you lots of positive vibes and good luck xx 

Hi. Thankyou so much for replying. My appt was on the same day as yours but I was told 2 weeks for results. I really hope Your news is good news. Fingers crossed for you too xx

Is your lump fixed Tracy? Mine is over 2cm, moveable and deep in the breast too. It didn’t show on the mammogram and they didn’t mention anything about my lymph nodes, wish I had asked! All the best for you x 

It's about 4cm I think and is fixed. She said it was very deep in the tissue and the lady who did the biopsies said it was deep down. Did you have an ultrasound as well? X good luck to you x

Thank you. Oh wow that’s double the wait - I feel for you. Keep yourself busy though and time will fly by xx

Let me know how you get on x