Hi all, please some one let me in on some positive stories to give me a boost as devastated with my outcome.

I got my second biopsy back this week which has confirmed CIN3 has returned within a year and after 2 lletz treatments. My consultant has recommended I have a hysterectomy asap as the CIN is as far up into the cervix as they can see.  We had IVF last year and now have a little miracle baby which I am so grateful for, but I have 2 more embryos in storage and i am really struggling to just accept that I won't be able to at least try and carry them. 

I'm 28 and close friends and family as supportive as they are, keep saying, well at least you have your baby. I do understand what they are saying and my LO is my world but I don't feel ready to lose the opportunity to carry my two frozen embryos and potentially have 2 more babies. 

My consultant is referring me to a colleague of his to see if he would at all be able to just remove my cervix so I can try and carry again or if there is anyway he can bide me some time.

I'm sorry to sound awful but I feel so bitter, I'm the sort of person that I let things pan out the way they are meant to, and trust that everything will be ok, but it's the realisation that I will have to have the hysterectomy either this year or in however much time this nect consultant can give me, and I just can't process that I may not be able to have any more babies, I'm 28 and have so much time ahead of me.

Sorry its such a long post