Hi Sophie, 

I haven't been through this I just noticed your post and thought I'd say hello and welcome to the forum.

Hopefully someone else here will be along soon to help reassure you. It's really good that you had your smear but obviously not good that they picked up on something but after your colonoscopy you should have more answers. Have they said to you what they suspect is wrong or are you totally in the dark at the moment? A lot of people here say the waiting is the worst part and I'd agree. It's just awful. You're obviously such a lovely person and I know it's hard but try to stay calm and take a deep breath. One day at a time and go from there. Xxxxx

No they haven't just said what was found I think the one thing playing on my mind is the nurse who did it said to me unfortunately the smear results are coming back in 6 weeks in less there  is something serious mine came back in a week and 2 days ! I hate waiting for it being left in the dark it's the most scary thing I'm trying to hold it together for my family but It hard.. 

Thankyou for saying that and replying means alotxxxx

Hi Soph

The waiting is an awful time, but think of the positive in this: your results came back quickly and now you are on to the next stage of investigation which will give you more information. Once you have this you will be able to feel calmer-whatever the result, there will be treatment and you will feel you have some control back in your life instead of being in this mad out of control time where your mind runs away with you. 

I haven’t had a colposcopy but have had a hysteroscopy (camera put in to look around) and punch biopsies of my cervix. None of this was painful and I had no anaesthetic or painkillers. My results were back within 1 week.  I’ve been through treatment and am happy to help if I can if you need any advice or help. Don’t automatically assume you have cervical cancer...it might be that you just have abnormal cells which need a procedure to be removed. I know you’re scared, but it’s actually ok and perfectly normal not be be strong and able to hold it together all of the time. We’re all the same! I hope your colposcopy goes smoothly and your mind is put at rest. Do come back and let us know-there is lots of support here if you need it. xxx

Hiya Thankyou very much for your reply , it has been super hard and I know it's ok for me to be scared, but I also worry about worrying everyone, i think if it was just hpv or just cells it wouldn't be as worrying for me , it's the fact I have had both come.back positive and have symptoms which is playing on my mind,  it was a VERY painful smear to so hope it won't be as painful. 

Thanks  for replying  xxxx

Thankyou we just went on holiday to st Ives beautiful place for a break Monday to Friday , so had a nice time there,  my mum and dad and hubby know and they are very supportive well my hubby  not as much as id like  but I think he isn't as aware and as worried he is always  more positive sometimes too much lol , he couldn't come with us due to work but had mum and dad down, i just want Wednesday to hurry up u know .. feels like so far away:(  i feel like why me didn't expect it at all ... just thought why it be ok .. So to have the results back has scared it out of me "(  i cant help but stare at my baby gal and think oh god what if :( xxxxx

Hi Soph1991,

I was wondering if you would mind posting an update? I have had the exact same letter as you and also constantly bleeding too. I have a hospital appointment booked for the 13th May for biopsies but the wait is just horrendous! 

How did you get on, I hope that it was something that they could treat then and there for you. I am 32 and also have children, 2 girls, one is 6 and my youngest is 16 months, I keep doing the same as you, staring at them, hugging them and thinking what if!

Thank you, hopefully speak soon!

Charlotte xx

Hi Charlotte , 

I went to the hospital they did the procedure and found the nasty cells and removed them all and then sent a biopsy away for testing , I found the whole thing very traumatic but knew it needed to done,  they offered for me to come back and have them removed in the next week or  they would do it there and then .. I just wanted them out as you can imagine.  

Weeks later I got.the best letter ever!!!!! 

No cancerous cells from the biopsy.  ️ ️ ️ ️ ️

Just make sure you have someone to be there and hold your hand and take you home and look after you . 

I hope it all goes well.and you get the same result and positive vibes sent your way ️ ️ ️

I know it will be worrying and a stressful time and I ain't going to pretend you ain't gonna panic and feel stressed,  anxious , and feel like the world is closing in in you but just know if you need anyone to talk to I am here and I seriously wish you the best of luck. 

Sophie xxx

Thank you so much for replying so quickly! I barely slept and we are moving house today so it's all an added stress. My smear 3 years ago was normal so fingers crossed all will be OK for me too. I'm so happy yours turned out well. It is all so worrying but I suppose this is the great thing about the NHS offering routine smears, to catch it before it starts! 

Thank you again for replying to me, you have helped settle my nerves a little! 

Charlotte xx