Hi All.. :-)
I'm a 31 year old mum of 2 gorgeous young children.
Well, what a year... I'll start at the beginning and try not to go on to long.
Jan 2018 I noticed my stomach never felt 'right I was getting pains frequently, mixed with horrific back pain, on/off periods.. I was well overdue a smear so I thought I'd book that before I head to drs incase they ask.. I booked smear and the nurse said according to her records I'd lost 2.5 stone in 4 years.. (I'm a size 8 and always looked like a stick as I'm tall) I didn't feel like it lost any but with the symptoms i already had this was enough to make me see Dr..
Dr did a full blood count and said I was annemic and also needed vit d and b12 injections. I started course and was under the understanding it was those deficiencies making me feel so bad..
End of Jan I get my smear test results back... I need to go in.. 6th Feb I attended the hosp and was told I should have a colonoscopy - I had CIN3.. did that, and was told to go back in 6months time. Next smear was all clear.
Still feeling rough but having the b12 jabs and vitamins.. jump to may 2018 we went on holiday.. My stomach and back ache was bad daily and my stomach would swell to make me look about 6 months preg and the back pain was so bad I was in tears it was like I had a rubber ring on and the pain was right the way around.. there was no cause for swelling it would happen before / after food morning /night and would go down after a few hours most of the time.
I noticed in the summer 2018 that my 1 breast had started shrinking.. I've only small breasts anyway but it seemed to happen almost overnight.. you could fit a hand down the gapingness of my bra. Should be worth mentioning I have a 4-5cm lump in this breast I've had half my life and which has been tested on twice and proven it's nothing to worry about. I was also suffering from severe breast pain in the said breast, so much so I couldn't hug my kids like I'd like because of he pain some days.
I was referred to breast spevialist after some extreme pressuring from my part (familt history of breast cancer right through my nans side) and at the apt i went through everytbig mentioned above and thst I was still tired still having stomach pains and now losing hair but the sudden shrinking of breast was crazy... the specialist examined me and I had a scan on the old lump... Again!?.. NO other part of the breast - and next to lump they found another small lump which they biopsies and was nothing... because of this tiny lump they found it made me forget to ask why my whole breast area wasn't being scanned.. but she reassured me that if I was having pain then it could be down to monthlies or muscle or stomach.. and if ive lost weight then it's bound to shrink.. She wasn't interested in my family history because (touch wood) my mum hasn't had breast cancer.
In Nov 2018 I booked another apt with drs.. My b12 had stopped I was told to go back in 6months to have bloods n see if still needed it but I booked in.nov 2 months early as I was like a zombie.. struggling daily with exhaustion, body still not right and by this point my thining hair coming out in clumps... I had bloods.. results came back all within normal range.. I couldn't belive it.
Got through Xmas.. Jan 19 I tried continuously to get apt with the Dr I'd met last year.. eventually seen him start of Feb.. told him everything is the same but now I'm bald patchess and boob even smaller.. he doesn't examines me just books in more bloods n says well take it from there.. And booked me.in for telephone consultation for 10dayd after bloods...
Rings with my results last Friday... all normal - vitamin d a little low.. then trys to end the call... I ask about hair loss - he said he can refer but won't be covered on nhs so chargeable.. I ask about my breast.. he tells me to make another apt with female Dr to examine me again.. NOW I AM SHOCKED! SURELY I SHOULD BE UNCOMFORTABLE NOT A DR!
Today - sees a lady Dr, shows her my hair - she's referring- told me up to 12month wait... talk about my breast, she says well I can 're refer but it could be 6months wait as you wouldn't be urgent if been seen and they can't see a problem - then she examines me.
Finds another lump in my armpit... She takes everything back and says it will be around 3 weeks...
NOW I AM ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED..PETRIFIED INFACT THAT I MAY HAVE BEEN ILL FOR 12MONTHS -EASILY ATLEAST AND NOW THINGS ARE PROGRESSING / SPREADING.. MY MUM HAS BOOKED ME IN WITH SPIRE ON FRIDAY RATHER THAN WAIT ANY LONGER. BUT EVEN THOUGH ITS 2 DAYS I CANNOT COPE. IVE CRIED ALL DAY. KEEP HAVING PANICKS. IM JUST THINKING OF MY 2 LITTLE ONES. I JUST WELL, DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK APART FROM THE WORST AND SO MUCH ANGER TOWARDS THESE DRS WHO IVE SEEN.
LIKE I HAVENT BEEN TAKEN SERIOUSLY ALL THIS TIME.
