Hi all. Apologies in advance for the lengthy post, this is my first one. I am 41, married and a mother of one. I’ve had normal smears since I was 24 until the last one in October which showed moderate to high grade abnormalities. Had a colposcopy 2 weeks later during which the sonographer thought my cervix looked relatively healthy. He could only see a few white patches so he didn’t give me the lletz but took 2 biopsies. Results came back 5 weeks later showing CIN1. Huge relief. A week later a letter arrived from hospital saying they weren’t convinced by biopsy results due to the discrepancies in result so they retested my smear sample and again CIN 2 was confirmed. I Was invited for lletz which I had done yesterday. The procedure went smoothly except for a polyp which the nurse found and removed (she didn’t say anything about it just that it would be analysed). I was feeling relatively calm and positive until I stupidly googled lletz and polyps and worried myself sick as the stories I read weren’t reassuring. Also I googled symptoms of cervical cancer and it seemed I already have quite a few. I started bleeding mid cycle about a year ago (every month) which doctors dismissed as being part of hormonal changes after I turned 40. I occasionally bleed after sex but never had pain. But the most worrying one is that I started feeling a bladder weakness and an urge to urinate frequently about 2 months ago which I thought was due to me having a bad cold which had weakened me but this is actually not improving even though the cold was cured a month ago. I read that loss of bladder control can be caused by tumour growth putting pressure on the organs surrounding the cervix! But I thought tumours have to be really big for that to happen? And if so then couldn’t they see it during the colposcopy? Could a tumour have already spread to my bladder? Apologies for rambling but my mind has gone into overdrive and I don’t know how to stop it. The wait is going to be long and I just would appreciate some feedback or any words of support xxx