Hi everyone. I hope you're all doing ok.

As you can see, I'm new to this site. I've started posting here so I can reach out to people who might be in the same boat as me.

So here it goes, and I apologise if this is the wrong place to post:

I'm a (recently-turned) 18 year old student diagnosed with anxiety, moderate depression and autism spectrum disorder. I have also been diagnosed with prediabetes - I scored just above the "normal" range. I am overweight. My diet is not very healthy. It is inconsistent - 3/4 days of the week I manage to have three solid, varied meals a day, and the other four, I eat some kind of fast food in the early part of the day and nothing in the evening. However, I am active and spend about an hour walking most of the week. Sometimes this is difficult because I am depressed and cannot always motivate myself to get out, so I would say I spend around 2 days a week kind of sedentary. I am not a smoker or a drinker, although I have drank alcohol in excess with friends once a few months ago.

I am terrified I have pancreatic cancer. 

Today (1/2/2019) I googled my symptoms, which are:

- inconsistent appetite 

- sight tingle/ache in right rib area (started about three days ago)

And landed onto a page for finding pancreatic cancer. Ever since this afternoon, I've been spending ages googling symptoms and getting worried about secretly being on the cusp of death without realising until now. I am terrified that I am going to die before achieving my goals - no offense to any P.C survivors, but I've been told it's difficult to seek out and cure. I do not suffer from jaundice, nausea, vomitting, headaches or any other severe ache in other parts of my body. I used to get weird sensations in my hands after eating, but they stopped three months ago. My skin does itch at certain times, but not constantly. I also do not suffer from extreme thirst or hunger. But, funnily enough, my rib has started "tingling" again since this sudden onset of anxiety :P

I'm not sure what my next steps are, to be honest. I'm going to organise a GP appointment for next week and raise my concerns there. I've tried telling my mum but she's brushed me off - insisting that I'm too young, that my lifestyle doesn't put me at significant risk, etc. I think I'm going to call one of my friends to keep me calm for the rest of this evening.

I'm also not sure what I hope to gain out of this post either. I just wanted to put myself out there. It's a very difficult time for me right now.