Hello,
I don’t really know why I have now chosen to post here, but I am so scared of having cancer. This is something that has always scared me due to a number of friends of all ages getting diagnosed.
Because of my fear, I thought that I was very good at noticing changes in my body much to my doctor’s annoyance and even to the point that this year I was referred to counselling.
But just over 2 weeks ago, my left nipple was really sore and just thought I’m not going to worry about it because it’s probably just a normal hormonal breast pain. But then it hurt more so I decided to feel my nipple. I check my breasts once a month for any changes, but I didn’t actually think of checking my nipple for lumps too. This is when I felt a lump under my nipple that hurt when I touched it. Also my left armpit had been a little bit sore, but again I thought that this is normal because I did have a spot like thing come up in the same armpit a few weeks before which made my armpit hurt.
The next day, I went to my doctor and said I’m not worrying about it too much as I know you say that I’m very anxious and I didn’t want to go into the new year being the same. I was hoping that she was going to say yep it’s an infection, but she felt me and said that she was going to refer me to the breast clinic and she didn’t say what it could be. This scared me but it didn’t scare me as much as picking up the referral letter that says ‘suspected breast cancer’. My nipple doesn’t hurt anymore but the lump is still there and my armpit still hurts and feels like there’s something there that shouldn’t be but I can’t feel a lump in my armpit and the pain travels down the inner side of my arm and my whole left side of my chest just feels a little achy.
I’ve just turned 27 and I’ve never had children and am quite healthy on the whole. How can this be happening to me? Why didn’t I check my nipple area when I did my monthly checks?
I have my breast clinic appointment on Monday and I just want to know what is wrong with me.
I think I just needed to post on here to let it out even if I don’t get a reply.
Gemma