First scare, family history, absolutely terrified!

Hi everyone.

I am 29 years old, and yesterday I found a hard lump on my left breast, just below the nipple. I was away at the weekend, and carrying a heavy backpack, so when I started experiencing an achy sort of feeling there on Sunday I figured I had just strained a muscle! However the pain got worse yesterday and by the evening it was driving me nuts, so I examined my breast to see if I could see anything and felt the lump. Fortunately I had a doctors appointment booked for this morning (for something else), so managed to get examined, and secured a referral to the breast clinic pretty quickly. The GP said that it doesn't "feel" sinister to her, and she suspects a Fibroadenoma, but obviously wants to check. She told me not to worry (ARGH!)

Unfortunately I have a fairly extensive family history of cancer. My mum passed away from oesophageal cancer when I was 17 - and hers was secondary when she was diagnosed, so we aren't sure where it originated. My dad is also in remission from cancer, and so is his brother - my uncle. His Dad also died from bowel cancer 7 years ago. My sister has also had "pre-cancerous" cells removed from her cervix a few years back. I'm so terrified that I these occurences will make a big C diagnosis more likely!

I am absolutely 120% freaking out, which I guess is to be expected, but I honestly don't know what to do with myself. The pain is slightly better today with ibuprofen, which is apparently a good sign according to the GP - and I have experienced no other symptoms in my arm pit or the surrounding areas. I do have a nipple piercing on that side, which was actually what I thought the soreness was in the first place - I don't know if a piercing can produce these kind of symptoms, has anyone else experienced something like that?! I feel so stupid asking all these questions and floundering around worrying before a definite answer, but I think my thoughts are just running away with me a bit.

Anyway. I guess the point of this post is to reach out to everyone currently waiting for an initial hospital appointment that feels alone. And to everyone else in between, and everyone living with a diagnosis. I hope everybody is feeling ok today.

  • Only the weekend to get through now. I've been managing to keep sort-of busy with work and family, but the nerves are starting to creep in again and I've been feeling really low today.

    Interestingly, the pain has all but gone now (unless I press on the lump, which I'm not going to do too often!) I had to genuinely check to see if it was still there. This is so weird.

    How are you doing [@sangha]‍ ?

  • Webbydevvy.  All the best. And hope is well for you. 

    Mines tomorrow. Dreading it. Xx.  

    I just feel v tired and low in myself. Pain is on and off lump is there still.  Trying not to google and keeping 

    myself busy  xx  let’s ys know how you get on xx

     

  • DBird. Oh lol xx. OMG. I was hoping it’s an infection. Trauma injury. But gp said no infection maybe injury. But i not had an injury. And lymph nodes possible. Or the dreaded.  Yes I’m n too much pain. I want it out. It’s awful. My whole arm and hand is effected by it.  And it’s rught side I’m right handed too. X how are things with you  @dbird. Xx 

     

     

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  • DBird. Hope all went ok today. Xx 

  • Need it. Morning. Thanks.  It seems to have

    calmed down the pain and the lump. Babita x 

     

     

  • [@sangha]‍ how did it go?

    Mine was ok, microcystic changes - benign. The doctor was very business-like, gave me a really good prodding (ouch!) but was very very thorough, examined both breasts, and underarms, and viewed them from different angles. She was convinced it was a cyst, but sent me for an ultrasound to be sure.

    The ultrasound was nerve-wracking... mainly because both the nurse and the ultrasound guy both asked me "So, what brings you here today?" which made me want to scream in frustration! Neither of them had seen anything on my notes, so didn't know what they were looking for, or where they were looking, so I had to explain all over again. Then they couldn't see anything so kept asking me if I was absolutely sure I could feel the lump! (YES.) Finally, he found several tiny cysts (after really digging in hard with the wand, which absolutely killed). He reassured me, and said there was nothing to worry about, that he didn't want to take a biopsy - and that I could get dressed. Then he made me lie back down again because he had forgotten to do the lymph nodes, loudly announced that mine were "reactive" and didn't say anything more! Literally frog-marched me out the room again! Scared the absolute heck out of me.

    Thankfully I was called back into the first doctor's office, and she then explained that the level of lymph node reaction was totally normal, and could be as a result of the cysts, the prodding, or even a rogue cold that I wasn't aware of. She said that I need to come in again if there are any changes, or if I am concerned about anything else, and that I should look into taking Evening Primrose Oil or Starflower Oil, as these can help breast pain. She was super helpful.

    From my visit, I learnt that different hospital departments do not always communicate effectively, and that some doctors find bedside-manner pretty difficult! I really hope you're ok [@sangha]‍ , and do let me know if you want to talk about any of it. Stay strong x

  • Hi ladies

    mije was crap. 5 hours. A scan. Biopsy.  They don’t know what it is.  Great Xmas