Hi,
After suffering from chest pain for about a year and a half which was diagnosed as costochondritis I finally got a CT scan just over 2 months ago since the pain started to get worse over the summer.
To be honest I didn’t really expect anything to be found but was told my thymus gland looked abnormal and then had to go in for an MRI scan about 3 weeks ago now. Got to see a consultant for the first time last week who seemed to think I have a thymoma and now i’ve had some blood tests and have got to go back in for a nerve test at some point though I don’t know when.
Not really sure why i’m writing this but I guess i’ve managed to stress myself out and after being in pain constantly for almost 2 years now, since I was 18, i’m sick of it. I’m in my second year at university and though I really try to not let it get to me, it sometimes does and I can’t help but imagine the worst case scenarios. It’s affecting my uni work, I can’t sleep due to worrying and then miss my lectures, and i’ve become more withdrawn with my friends who are very understanding but I don’t want to bring them down by talking about my problems. I keep having to leave uni to go home for tests and visits meaning I miss social events with my friends and several lectures, i’ve not really mentioned anything to my teachers and to be honest I don’t really want to, I feel like i’m making excuses.
I’ve also got several lumps in my neck which I never really worried about until now, and decided to check the rest of my body and found several hard, what I assume to be enlarged lymph nodes, in my groin so now i’m wondering if I bring them up to my consultant in my next meeting.
I feel ridiculous because nothing is currently known for certain but honestly that’s what stresses me out the most, the uncertainty, I just want to move forward but i’m very bad at pushing for things.
I guess I just don’t really feel like i’ve got anyone to talk to, I know my family will always be there for me if I need them but I don’t want to worry them and I don’t want them to see how this is affecting me. I don’t feel like thymomas are all that common but any advice with how to deal with any of this moving forward would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you.
