terrified waiting for test found large breast lump

Im sitting here just in a dreadful terrified state, thinking what about my kids and my partner,,its my daughters wedding in two days and I just found out I need an urgent mammagram etc I found a large lump saw the GP and her face said it all the lump is big and obvious and I sort of hoped she would say 'lump what lump' but she went right to it and said it was large and needed seeing urgently.

Im scared stiff and its going to be weeks really before I know how bad this is..OH god how can I get through the next few weeks and the wedding acting normal I cant tell the kids certainly not my daughters and ruin the wedding but I have to pull myslef through it all and do my job and look like it is such a happy time when truth is I just keep crying and wanting to screem and run!!!!

what the hell do I do

A X

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    HI Rhian,

    Welcome to the forum. I am so sorry to hear about the lump that you have found. I am glad to hear that you have wasted no time in getting to see your GP and that you are now waiting for an appointment at the breast clinic. I have had 2 bouts of cancer 9 and 10 years ago. On both occasions my lumps were hard and uneven around the edges.

    You are young to be having this sort of trouble and I sincerely hope that it is nothing untoward. At this stage, you are bound to be worried, not just for yourself, but for your children too. If it is of any consolation to you, only 1 person in 8 who is referred to the breast clinic is diagnosed with breast cancer. However, I know that this doesn't ease your anxietuy at this stage. Keep yourself as busy as you can. this helps the time to pass a little quicker.

    Try to stay away from Dr Google, as you don't know what you are dealing with yet and, you will only succeed in scaring yourself if you do. It is perfectly normal to be very emotional when you are waiting for a diagnosis, so don't worry if you find yourself crying a lot, or find your emotions changing regularly. You will find all this easier to deal with once you know the outcome of any tests.

    You should be seen within 2 weeks if you have been given an emergency referral. Do please let us know when you get your appointment through. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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    Hi Lulu,

    Welcome to the forum.

    I agree with Woolylamb,

    Don't distress yourself any further. Make an appointment to see your GP as soon as possible. My mum died from secondary breast cancer 22 years ago. This was 12 years after she had been diagnosed with primary breast cancer. She was 75 when she died. I have had 2 bouts  which were 9 and 10 years ago respectively. As I get closer to my mum's age I cannot help but worry.

    I am glad to hear that you don't have the gene that your mum and sister had and, I sincerely hope that the test wasn't wrong. However, the only way that you will find this out is by seeing your GP. If you explain the reason for your appointment, the receptionist will usually fit you in quite qickly.

    Try to stop feeling around the breast so much, as this will only make it feel sorer.

    I sincerely hope that your GP finds nothing untoward, but please let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Thank you ladies for your replies, my female doctor only works Tuesday and Fridays so I will call tomorrow to ask to see her,. Got a family wedding at the weekend which we have looked forward to for so long just hope I can enjoy!

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    HI Lulu

    Why put off until tomorrow what you can do today? You never know, you might even get fitted in today. As to your wedding, you don't know that anything is amiss until you've had some tests and are told so, so go to your wedding and enjoy it.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi 

    I have had a biopsy and mammogram last Wednesday after finding a lump, my follow up appointment is on Wednesday at 15.30 and I have never been so scared in my life, I have been Googling which has probably scared me more. I have had an aching back after Wednesday so now thinking the worst. Cried most days and gone through the worse case scenarios and my head is a total mess right now

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    Hi Kerry,

    We are all too familiar with the emotions attached to the wait for results. It is never a good idea to Google, especially when you don't have a diagnosis. Many think the worst case scenario at this stage, but fortunately this seldom comes to pass.

    Don't worry about the crying - this is a good way to reduce some of the stress. Irrespective of the outcome, you will find this all easier to cope with when you get your results and, can move on to doing something about it if needed.

    I sincerely hope that all goes well for you on Wednesday. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on .

    Kind regards

    Jolamine xx

  • Thank you, reading these positive feeds have been really helpful xxx

  • Hi. 
    had my results and I am so scared right now, been told it is cancer, lymph nodes that were taken at the biopsy were clear but told that doesn't actually mean anything, now got to go for an MRI & CT scan to check it hasn't spread, is this normal practice to go for both. Also said about estrogen being present, I am so scared and stressed. Still working but from home and my top half of my back is so knotted and tight but hopefully this is stress related but so scared as you read so much on dr google I am crying so much my head hurts  

  • Hi Kerry

    That sounds really tough, I don't know much about any of this really, but generally people seem to be saying try to stay positive, keep busy, and deal with only what you know.

    Almost impossible I know.

     

     I found a large lump in my right breast 11 days ago and have a mammogram and scan booked for Monday and don't know what I'm dealing with yet.

    I've since found another lump in the same breast and having made the mistake of incessantly searching google think I've exhibited lots of signs of secondary cancer over the last six months or so.

    This last week or so has been horrendous, and I'm really scared, just counting down the days.  
     

    I'm afraid that it's cancer, has spread, is at an advanced stage and I won't survive for long.

    This forum is the only thing that has really given me peace - so many stories, so much support, and bravery in abundance.

    Hang on in there X

     

  • Hi Kerry

    Just wanted to reach out to let you know you are not alone in all this. 

    I was diagnosed with triple positive breast cancer last month and due to start treatment on 22nd Feb. A MRI is normal practice to check both breasts and the chest bones, however I was not offered a CT scan (I think that depends of lymph node status and the size of the lump).

    I know it's scary and it will feel like that until you get all the information but the fact that they have said your lymph nodes are clear is a good thing.

    I was exactly the same as you, Googling everything I could so I felt prepared for every possible outcome, it's human nature I think to feel as though we can somehow gain control of a situation. 

    The waiting is absolutely horrible but just take a breath and take it one step at a time, one test at a time, one result at a time. You will get through this.

    You seem to be where I was a few weeks ago so if you need any advice or questions or even just to moan and vent about this I'm usually here most days so just let me know.

    We're all going through this together and talking to people who are going through it too has really helped me. We can beat this! 

    Keep in touch

    Amy x