Been referred to Breast Clinic and freaking out...

Hi all, 

I'm sure there are lots of messages like this one, but I thought I'd post a message anyway as it seems like a good place to vent my worry without unnecessarily alarming other people in my life!

I went to see my GP yesterday as my right breast has been feeling a bit tender lately. My breasts are quite naturally lumpy but recently it's felt like there is an area of my breast which is more solid than the rest. I don't know why, but I kind of expected the GP to say it was nothing and for me to carry on with the rest of my day as usual. Instead as soon as I mentioned slight pain in my right breast her general demeanour went from bright and breezy to serious and concerned. She asked me if I had any family history of breast cancer, and I told her my grandmother had it (she passed away from breast and lung cancer aged 68). I also remembered after my appointment that my mother's cousin had it, although my mum and aunt are fine (at least so far). She examined my breast, and although I hadn't actually mentioned finding any lumps she immediately found the place that I had identified myself. She said she wasn't sure if it was a lump, or just a nodule as my breasts are quite nodular, but she would refer me to a breast clinic for screening. She would recommend all available tests. She said she thought they would want to see me "very quickly". So as you can imagine I left the GP surgery alarmed. I also got a call from the hospital the same day (yesterday) to arrange an appointment - which also alarmed me as I figured they had prioritised me because they suspected it was cancer.

The appointment is for a week on monday. I'm not sure if I can wait that long because psychologically I'm already finding it very tough.

This year is a very big one for me as I'm getting married in three months. The wedding is abroad, everything's already organised, many people have booked their flights and accommodation. Me and my fiance are planning our life together. I can't imagine everything being disrupted by a breast cancer diagnosis. 

More than that, I can't imagine trying to face breast cancer if that is the diagnosis. The GP said I should try not to worry, and that most cases are benign, but I am upset that I was referred so quickly. 

I tried to talk to my Mum about it, especially as my stepdad is a retired doctor, but both of them immediately dismissed it by saying if I have any pain the likelihood is that it's not anything serious. My boyfriend is being very understanding, and saying that if it's serious we can postpone the wedding, we'll do whatever it takes. But I already have a lot going on in my life and I'm struggling to imagine the possibility, however unlikely, of taking breast cancer on as well. 

How do people cope with this? I don't want to mention it to friends as I don't have a diagnosis of anything yet. But at the same time I find it hard to socialise etc as normal with this dread hanging over me.

Sophie x

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    Hi Laurah,

    It depends upon what type of clinic you're attending. Some are walk in clinics which usually do give you the results on the day. Most are just clinics within a hospital and here you usually have to wait for 1-2 weeks to get your results. It will also depend upon your age and what tests you get done.

    I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 12 years and, on both occasions, my consultant told me that he was pretty sure that it was cancer at my first visit, but I still had to wait for my test results to confirm this.

    Waiting is one of the worst times of our cancer journey. Try to keep yourself busy to detract from the wait.

    Here's hoping that you will get your appointment through soon.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine, 

    it's a one stop clinic. I'm in northumberland & I'm 33. With 3 young daughters. Appointment is a week tomorrow

     

    Laura xx

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    Hi Laurah,

    In that case the likelihood is that you will be xamined and may then have an ultrasound and possibly a biopsy. I am not a doctor, but as far as I know you may get the result of an examination and ultrasound on the day, but you may still have to wait a week for any biopsy results if these are needed. I know that another week sounds like forever at the moment, but I'm glad to hear that your appointment has come through.

    You will naturally be concerned for your family as much as yourself. We all feel like this. I remember when I was first diagnosed, having already lost my mum to breast cancer, I naturally thought the worst. I had 2 yound teenagers at the time. Since then, I have seen them leave school, go to university, graduate, get gainful employment, marry and have families of their own. All of this happened despite having 2 bouts of breast cancer. I'm happy to say that I still lead a busy and fulfilled life now.

    I shall be thinking of you next Thursday and hope that it all turns out well for you.

    Please keep us in the loop and remember that we are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine

     

    thank you so much for replying and for your kindness xx

     

    im quite worried because I've now found what look like a dent or indentation in the same breast. It's quite small, maybe an inch, and is on the underside of my breast. I've also notice that breast seems larger than the other and like it's maybe swollen. I think maybe im freaking myself out over nothing but anytime I look up breast indentation or dent it comes back as cancer. My appointment is tomorrow morning and I've written down everything I've noticed so I make sure I mention everything but I'm so worried that it is gonna be cancer. I'm only 22 which I know is young but my mum was only 25. 
     

    xx

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    Hi Fh001,

    It sounds as if you are now doing what most of us do and, noticing things that are perfectly normal and have been with you for years. Most of us have one breaast larger than the other, but if you've noticed swelling, it is possible that there could be an infection, which could be easily cleared.

    I know just how hard it is when there is already a family history of breast cancer and, appreciate why you feel so worried when your mum was diagnosed so young. Try to stop looking things up until you know what you are dealing with, as you are only scaring yourself further.

    I sincerely hope that all goes well tomorrow. You will find things easier to cope with once you know what you are up against.

    Don't forget to let us know how you get on.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine, had the appointment and was okay. She immediately said the 'spot' on my breast that I was referred to was in fact just a spot and should go away over time. She wasn't worried at all about that. She said she felt a ridge around the place I noticed the ident. She wasn't particularly worried about it but will refer me for an ultrasound in the next couple of weeks as there were no more scanning slots that day. Feeling a lot better! Would've been nice to have the ultrasound the same day as I was there but that can't be helped it seems!

  • Hi,

     

    I'm new here. I've just got my referral to the breast clinic for next week. Bascially I took my bra off on Saturday and saw a few droplets of dried blood on it. 

    I immediately freaked out and called the 111 service who set the ball in motion and my GP arranged an appointment today. 

    I'm only 30, my grandmother had breast cancer in her 70s but they said at the time it was caused by age and she was cured, I don't have a lump or any skin changes (that I've noticed) other than my boobs look slightly smaller because I've lost weight (on purpose) lately. I spoke to my sister who is a junior doctor and she says the two week urgent referral is standard but I still feel like I have a deadly disease. 

    I'm freaking out because I have had lifelong health anxiety and a whole host of mental health problems. On Friday I finally got the right diagnosis after 12 years of pyschiatrists, medication and breakdowns and things were finally looking up. I am worried that because when my luck starts to turn and I start to feel happier things always tend to come along and ruin it. I am worried that this is the other shoe dropping. 

       

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    Hi Fh001,

    Many thanks for the update. I am glad to hear that all seems to have gone well for you. What a pity that you couldn't get your ultrasound at the same time, but hopefully this will come through soon.

    Please let us know when you get your appointment. I am glad to hear that you feel a lot better already and, sincerely hope that your scan doesn't find anything untoward.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • It's a very worrying time waiting. I do hope hour appointment comes around quickly for you.xx

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    Hi Laurah,

    You'll be glad that your appointment is almost here. I shall be thinking of you tomorrow and hope that it all goes well for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx