Hi all. I am new here (36F) and I am feeling really scared and anxious. I have been urgently referred for colonoscopy coming Friday 13th Nov following a positive FIT test and I think that made it worse in the first place is the way the doctor who called me about the result she was saying how worse case scenatio it's probably bowel cancer. At least my doctor, who initially did the referral didn't even say the word cancer and he was trying to reassure me a lot. He knows i'm going througha lot. The date itself is already really scaring me and i keep seeing number 13 everywhere now meaning what if will be what they find? I also am autistic and have severe vomit phobia and i am also really stressed and terrified about the prep and if i'm gonna be sick or really unwell with it (given Picolax). I am also curious of anyone's experience with Picolax?

I have been so extremely stressed and anxious since Thursday that i physically feel unwell and I am so scared. My mental health in general has been really bad before i was told about this test result so now I just don't know how to cope if i was told the worst news after colonoscopy. I am an overthinkiner and i am already panicking about something that's not even happened but it's because I am so so scared and feel alone. I cried so much today due to the fear of everything and not knowing what will happen.