Anxiety around the wait for referal

Hi, I’m a new mum - 5 months post partum, only managed to breast feed for 1 month then into formula as my supply dwindled. 
I am full of anxiety, bringing me to tears everytime I hold my baby girl, or think about the referral. I am so scared and am so anxious, I only have 2 more days until my appointment at the breast clinic but I have spiralled on Google and everything sounds so sinister and scary and now I’m afraid I won’t see my baby girl grow up and she will grow up not even remembering me. We worked so hard to get her, lost 2 pregnancies, had IVF and she is the most perfect beautiful blessing I could have ever got and I’m afraid she won’t know who I am and o won’t see her grown up, won’t be able to hold her or cuddle her. And I know this sounds like I’ve been given bad news but this is what is constantly going round my head even though it’s just a check up because I woke up one morning with my left nipple inverted, as soon as I stood up it righted itself and hasn’t happened again since that I have noticed but it’s just the fear and the anxiety and I don’t know what to do about it, it’s out of control I am really afraid, I’m trying to busy myself but it’s still what’s constantly going through my mind. Please if anyone else has had an inverted nipple 5 months post partum and everything has been fine let me know! I really need to hear some good news from people to help settle my mind as everything on Google is the worst case scenario but I can’t help but keep looking trying to find something that tells me I am going to be fine. I don’t think I can wait another 2 days the anxiety is driving me crazy. 

  • Hello Amylou2404 and welcome to the Cancer Chat forum.

    I'm really sorry to read what you're going through and how much your anxiety is taking over. It must be very difficult to contend with these thoughts, especially when they're constantly repeating and you feel like you have no control over them.

    I can see on another discussion that you're considering getting in touch with your GP tomorrow to see if they can help. I think that's a really good idea, so do give them a call first thing so you can get the support you need to help with your anxiety. In the meantime, I hope these tips we have on how to cope with waiting for news as well as the advice the NHS have on managing anxiety will help to calm your mind. If you're still struggling as the night goes on, don't hesitate to give the Samaritans a call on 116 123. They are there to listen and will do all they can to support you. There is also a free text messaging service call SHOUT that you can contact on 85258. Just like the Samaritans they are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and offer urgent support to anyone who is struggling with their mental health.

    Our members know just how stressful and scary this time can by Amylou2404, so you are not alone, and hopefully some of them will be along soon to share their experiences and advice. You may also want to look at these two discussions about post partum breast lump and post partum breast pain that were created by Aom2911 and Jessh92 3 months ago. I hope reading about their experiences will help to ease your worries and reassure you that there are others who really do understand what you're going through.

    We're sending you all our strength and support Amylou2404, and wishing you all the best with your breast clinic appointment on Sunday.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator