Hi there. Cancer is such a scary word and i don't know anyone who wouldn't be worried about it, but you're on the first step to recovery with the referal. It's ok to cry. It's a shock and really hits you when you first hear the news, but there are a few things to remember. First, it's not confirmed that you have it and it's not a good idea for you to look up pictures and descriptions because that can be misleading. You'll be seen by someone who deals with it and can talk to you about what it is and how to deal with it. I know it's hard to wait until you're seen but you say it was an urgent referal, so I'm hoping it won't be too long. I'm sorry you're on your own dealing with this, but you can talk to people here who understand what you're going through. As for your dog, I was constantly hugging mine when I found out and it helped me. Take care of yourself. Gill xx