Hi,

I’m currently waiting on a face to face appointment where they have said it may be removed if they think it needs to be. I have had the mole about 2 years and it is really dark and grown to 4mm. 
The GP originally said she wasn’t worried it was something bad but will refer me to be safe. I had an appointment to have photos taken and the clinician removed it and I have an appointment next week face to face. I have seen the notes from the clinician and it says flat dark irregular pigment network, ?melanoma. 
I’m absolutely terrified it’s melanoma. I have accepted they will remove it but all I can think is I have left it too late as it’s been there for 2 years and grown. I am thinking the worst that it’s spread and it’s going to be late stage. It’s all I can think about and that I’m going to die, I’m only 26. I’m spending hours googling, I know I shouldn’t but I’m just so scared. I have been in the sun a lot and feel like it’s my fault. It’s consuming me, I feel like there’s no way it’s not melanoma by looking at it and from the doctors note. I’ve read they are quite accurate at looking at the special photos and identifying what it is. I talk to people about it close to me but they say they’ll just take it off if it’s bad but it’s not that simple :( the waiting and not knowing is awful. How have people dealt with this and tried to be positive? X