I had a colposcopy earlier this week after visiting the hospital for what I thought was going to be to discuss a hysteroscopy. I'd been on HRT for 5 months and was still getting irregular bleeding. I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis last September and the consultant wanted to do a hysteroscopy to confirm this. He told me he wasn't concerned it was anything to be worried about but said as my BMI was over the limit for having this carried out at a private hospital, I needed to lose weight, but no urgency. Roll on 5 months, I was still experiencing spotting so went back to the GP who fast tracked me to a different gynaecologist.

When I was examined, the Gynae doctor said she was concerned about the appearance of my cervix and wanted to do a colposcopy and take biopsies straight away. I have been in bits since then as she said she believes that I have cervical cancer. I can't stop crying and can't understand how this has happened as the Gynae I saw in September said everything looked fine. I have terrible health anxiety, particularly around cancer and keep thinking I'm going to die. I obviously have to wait for the results but I'm so, so scared. 

Thank you for reading, I just don't know what to do with these feelings of sadness and anxiety.