Hello all,

I haven't been able to sleep properly for days as just terrified about the looming prospect of being diagnosed with PC.  I was absolutely fine until beginning of last month and then had two weeks of feeling ill. Nausea, tiredness, no energy to do anything and losing weight without trying. I then developed cramps in my groin, and constipation.  Was so shocked to then see almost white stools after about three days.  After that most of my other symptoms lifted, and regained energy and appetite.  However then started to experience darker urine a couple of times a day, with stools turning from white to more of a yellow colour over the last couple of days. Not floating though.

The GP had requested a liver US for me last August as non urgent as routine blood tests showed some signs of potential liver issues - higher count of red blood cells.  US date finally came through for Wednesday.  This showed the liver is normal, no gallstones but a dilated Common Bile Duct and intrahepatic ducts.  The GP has now put in an urgent suspected cancer referral to my local hospital with specialist pancreatic, billary department. This should be in next 13 days 

In the meantime I've been looking at the bleak statistics and how the UK lags behind even these compared to other countries such as Germany.  

I feel my life is about to end, no hope etc..and it all feels so out of the blue. I'm 59 and took early retirement and just see this being very cut short. 

Wondering if anyone else is feeling like this. And just dread being put on palliative care.  I see there are a few more treatment options available but outside the NHS.Apologies if this feels melodramatic but I feel as if I've been thrown into an abyss.