Hi, 
looking if someone has been through anything similar and can offer some advice or reassurance. 
I’m 36 and a mum to 2 children. My gynaecology history has never been great and I’ve had numerous treatments to remove abnormal cells, most recent being a cone biopsy in 2019 which left me with very little cervix. When I was in the early stages of my second pregnancy I had to have a cervical stitch in place due to my cervix being very short. Fast forward to earlier this year, I attend my smear and then was told they couldn’t get enough cells. Smear was repeated once more and then I was told I needed a colposcopy. A biopsy was taken and I was called last week to attend the hospital today to discuss next steps. Obviously I was freaking out but as I fainted during the biopsy I assumed the doctor wanted to speak with me face to face. It was a total shock to hear I need a hysterectomy as I have CGIN3 and due to having basically no cervix no other treatment is possible. To say I’m shocked is an understatement. The doctor also said he doesn’t think cells are cancerous but they need to remove my cervix to be sure. 
I was wondering if anyone has experienced similar? Were you diagnosed with cancer? I feel like I’m grieving a part of my body and losing part of what makes me a woman :(