Hello, 

I have had high risk HPV for the past 5 smears, colposcopy after the last 3 and am now on a three month recall for smears. I have asked that they just remove everything (pretty much for the last 8 years after beginning perimenopause), I have had three children, am in perimenopause - I’m not in need of any of it but I keep being told no. I am young and may change my mind about having more children. No, I won’t! I’m 41, done with all that.

Why?! I feel like a science experiment. Why is it not my choice?! 

When my husband and I have sex, I bleed afterwards every time and I have pain in the same place - always. Scans show nothing is wrong. I am so confused! Sore nipples constantly. I’ve lost 6 stone in the last 8 months and am sure it’s down to worrying and being angry that I can’t have everything causing me issues just removed. 

I hate being female.