Hello

I guess I’m just writing this post just now because I’m scared. The only person who knows is my partner but he’s trying to be optimistic until we get results through but personally I don’t feel like it’s going to be good news.

About 4/5 weeks ago I had a tight feeling round my throat and chest. I didn’t consider much of it until I found a lump on my neck. The lump on my neck was soft and squishy so after some research I put it down to a chest infection. About 2 weeks ago I started to feel worse , no new symptoms but just feeling like I was more aware when I was swallowing or more breathless. Then last week I found a hard painful lump on my breast. I hadn’t checked there before so I have no idea how long it’s been there, which considering my gran from my dads side died of breast and lung cancer in her 40’s was silly on my part. Along with that I’ve been so tired, unable to stay awake for a full day.

I had my doctor’s appointment yesterday but just before it I took one of those early pregnancy test which came back positive. This means I would have convinced about 2 weeks ago. The doctor never gave me any indication only that it would be too early for the tiredness or lumps to be pregnancy related. I’ve to get my bloods done on Thursday and been referred to the breast clinic. Depending on the results of the bloods she may also refer me to an ENT and chest X-ray.

From what I’ve been feeling and researching im worried it’s in my breast and lungs. I just feel like I have no hope. What started as such good news in the morning with being pregnant just turned into a day of fear and uncertainty. My wedding is October 2027 and I just feel like my life is just getting going but seems like I may not make that far.

I’m more worried about my partner. We are only 30 years old and I feel the past 10 years of his life have been a waste