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CONFUSED AND ANXIOUS - awaiting results of vulva biopsy and then having a colposcopy at the end of the month. How do you all cope?

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Hello , 

I am awaiting results of a vulva biopsy and a colposcopy at the end of the month it was mentioned the biopsy result may correspond with the colposcopy date/appointment . It started off with a bit of feeling uncomfortable and some soreness no itching . On checking myself as best possible I noticed warty looking whiteish discoloured skin with a prominent small lump . Attended a private clinic appointment which referred me to go via gp for an urgent 2WW gynaecology appointment and biopsy and some medication to be prescribed all this has been done although I had a reaction to medication ,  alternative has been prescribed not yet taken concerned if same reaction of itching all over torso will happen again . 

This is not my first cancer scare it is the 3rd  . The first time was a really difficult time thankfully large ovarian mass removed with hysterectomy and found to be benign . The 2nd did not seem so scary examinations and colonoscopy as they say to rule out anything sinister and normal colonoscopy result . 

Now this time really concerned and anxious , I do have other health issues for which I am trying my best believe it or not - not to get worried , anxious, concerned and/or stressed out . Should I get to worked up it could trigger off the paroxysmal atrial fibrillation .  I also have hypertension a couple of other things . I am agile get out and about good social Iife , not that energetic but enjoy walking when I can . Occasionally I have felt a bit flushed and clammy bit nauseous and blood pressure seems a bit erratic but keeping a check on it  it’s difficult to know now if it relates to my usual conditions or the sinister thing ‘ C’  I seem to have convinced myself I have !

Basically how are you all coping ? I do try to keep up beat but I really am all over the place . Getting upset in silence and wearing the happy mask in public . Sorry to have gone on a bit but  this time the fear is more .

TAKE CARE ….x

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    Hi, sorry to hear about your cancer scares and how anxious you must be awaiting results. I too am in the same boat, my dad has a 5.5cm abnormal mass on his kidney that we are told is likely cancer based on other tests. I've come on this forum as it's just me and my dad, he's my best friend and hero and I'm worried sick about him. We've already lost mum and my brother and my little girl so it's a very scary time to feel like I may lose the last family member I've got.

    I think how we cope is a big mix of things, some days are easier than others, some days all I do is sit and cry, other days I'm able to keep myself somewhat busy and focused on something else, even if its just the tv. Talking helps a lot and try to drink plenty of water, eat nutritional foods (and some treats!) And get plenty of sleep. I find those 3 things play a major factor on emotional regulation.

    I pray that this is another scare and not the big c, but if it is, know that you are not alone and there's plenty of support for cancer sufferers and their families

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    Hello, LovingDaughterClare ,

    Oh my gosh you are coping with a lot , such a similarity with things .  I only have one very close relative my sister . My sister and I both helped nurse her husband through his cancer battle , which he lost 6 years ago . We lost our Dad 18 years ago to oesophageal cancer and our Mom to Alzheimers /dementia 19 years ago both my sister and I nursed our Mom and Dad . Totally agree with you some days the strength comes from somewhere and the coping mechanism just kicks in and you are away working wonders but come down to earth with a bump on the unfortunate low days.

    I think the worst things that could happen to us both have already happened ,  especially to my sister losing her husband . We have today done what you mentioned had a treat of a nice Indian curry (been wanting one for days even weeks) maybe not the best thing but it was lovely .  Now settling down to watch the tv and thinking how fortunate I am to be in a better position than maybe a lot  of more other people .

    Thanks for the update and helping me make sense of things , will be thinking of you ....x

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