Last week I had a colonoscopy following a colonography which showed a mass.
I was awake and watched everything on the screen. I have a more than 3cm polyp that is bleeding and the endoscopist said it looked very "suspicious" and is too large to remove via endoscopy and the caecum is almost entirely blocked. Five biopsies were taken and I am now in limbo waiting for the results and the multi disciplinary team decision.
I was told I am being referred to lower gi as urgent, it is very likely I will need a laparotomy.
To say I am anxious is an understatement. I need to be fit to look after my husband who is recovering from an oesophagectomy. It is the not knowing that is whirring around my brain at night. Daytime I keep busy, it's the night time when the brain goes into overdrive and I'm not going to sleep until around 3am.
