Yeh I know, lots of people fear this but have other, manageable conditions but I just feel things are adding up. About 10 weeks ago I got ill, thought I has Covid initially as I felt like death and mostly had nasal symptoms and that extreme washed out feeling. Then my nose got quite painful and I started to wonder if I had an infection, I had recent swept up a dusty area and inhaled the dust. I use a CPAP which has always made me very dry, so despite pain and malaise, I had no snot.
After two weeks of feeling like death I went to the GP, I saw a nurse who gave me a steroid spray. The next week I felt no better so saw another nurse who gave me antibiotics. 10 days later, I had brief improvement, then it was back again, so I got another course of antibiotics. Two weeks later, saw a GP, who noticed my heart rate was raised and gave me another course. Still no joy. One thing that sticks out is how ill I feel, really washed out and tired. This doesn't kinda fit with a sinus infection, not the degree of tiredness I feel.
During all this my symptoms were persistent, pain but only on one side, extreme fatigue post nasal drip, that's pus going down the back of your throat, dry and sore eyes, full ears, very noticeable gland swelling. My heart rate got more pronounced and was constant, so I called 111 and they told me to go to hospital, they took tests. I waited 6 hours and the we were told it could be another 8 hour wait, I gave up. I decided if anything was on those tests that was urgent, they would have seen me. Just to add I have a severe mental illness, the kind that gets you detained and don't cope well being in crowded spaces. I saw a GP and he started asking me a ton of questions i know are to do with cancer, did I have nose bleeds, did the areas around my eyes hurt and he sent me for an urgent CT scan.
Two days ago my heart rate shot up to 145 and I felt really ill, so called 999, the paramedics took tests and noticed I had sudden drops in blood pressure, so they blue lighted me in. More tests, then put in the waiting room again. Waited 4 hours, then were told it could be another 10 hour wait and we might get seen quicker if we saw our GP, so I went home again. Saw my GP this morning, he sent me straight back. Finally I spoke to a Dr, I have no signs of infection or inflammation, I have nothing that would make my heart rate increase. So there are two options for these symptoms, an infection or cancer and one I don't have. Plus the CT scan was so fast, letter came in a couple of days for a scan two days later. But now I have to wait two weeks for the outcome.
I know we shouldn't Google but you kinda want certainty when things aren't certain, and all my symptoms point to cancer, as that GP was suspecting. My heart rate is constantly high, 105 atm. I read cancer can cause that. I should add in 24 years of mental illness have never once had a panic attack and nobody has suggested that thus far. And I have complex housing issues, mostly I don't look after myself well, so the house is heavily cluttered. It is also extremely run down. I do have a carer but that's all up in the air atm too. I have no friends or family. How on earth will I cope with cancer treatment, I might be toast anyway, my heart rate never goes down to normal levels, ECGs show no abnormality. I can't think of any other reason it would do that when I don't have an infection!
