Hey all, I've been browsing these pages for the last 10 days since a mole I have raised concerns at the doctors.

i went for 2 separate moles. I'm covered in moles BTW so it's impossible to keep track. The doctor was fine with them but raises a concern about another. My mum raised concern about it in my early 20s (I'm 43 next week) but had forgotten all about that until the doctors visit.

I am a pretty mind over matter person, I don't panic easily. I am however pretty much resigned to the fact that this is the start of a journey I don't want to be on. I'm not normally negative, so I believe there is some intuition just going on. I'm not really sure why I am posting this, I've told one friend, and I don't want to tell anyone else and the thought of telling my parents about a negative diagnosis is even worse that getting a negative diagnosis! I just all of a sudden feel like I'm looking down a barrel of a shotgun. Sorry this is a ramble, just needed to vent without the upbeat pity and more understanding than I would get from my loved ones