Hi

Im posting this just hoping someone can give me any kind of hope or guidance, as currently struggling with health anxiety and pretty sure i have a serious issue. I am yet to get an official diagnosis of what is causing the issues.

I'll start by saying I am currently waiting for the results of a ct scan on my pancreas, pelvis and abdoman, which was done 9 days ago

Bit of backstory, im 41m, married with 3 young children, 5, 3 and 9 months.

4 months ago I went through a stressful time waiting to see if I had skin cancer. I did in fact have it but managed to get it in time and it was removed. However during that time I started to get mid back pain, just to the left of the spine. If started off as intermittent but after a couple of weeks became constant and has been for the last 4 months. The pain is manageable most the time without painkillers, but is more uncomfortable and irritating.

During the last 4 months, I went down a health anxiety rabbit hole to try and find out the cause of the back pain, and convinced myself I was dying if the skin cancer, then spine cancer, then lung cancer, all of which came back negative after different tests. 

However the last month I have now started to have other pains along with the back pain that indicate it is very likely to be a pancreas issue. I have started to have abdominal pains on the left hand side, sometimes under the ribs, sometimes by the belly button, and more recently in my side causing strong flank pain. The back pain has also started to move around, sometimes its in the middle, sometimes between the shoulders or shoulder blades and now recently behind my ribcage. The abdominal pain varies in pain levels, never horrendous but definitely uncomfortable and always there in some location. Only lying and sitting down seams to give some relief. I can't tell if it is worsened by food as it is always there is some degree. It also sometimes feels like there is a ballon or ball stuck in my abdoman just below the sternum area. 

Alongside this i have lost 14ibs in 3 months, which possibly could be due to the health anxiety, however the loss seems to have steadied and I have been the same weight for about 2/3weeks. My appetite is currently really good, although I always have yellow/brown stools, which are sometimes solid and othertimes mushy. I also belch alot during tje day, and my flatulence seems to have worsened over the last week or 2.

I have had alot of tests done recently, an abdoman ultrasound, blood tests inc pancreas and liver, a CA19 marker, a thoracic back mri, all of which came back normal. I have also had an endoscopy recently which only showed mild gastritus.

Im sorry for the long post but the last 4 months have been incredibly difficult, particularly worrying about the possibility of what could be causing these issues.