Hi there, as per title. I feel like I am a deer caught in the headlights. 

Ive had symptoms for I dont even know how long. Because I put them down to social anxiety causing IBS. But things havent been right for awhile. 

I have always felt tired, exhausted etc, even more so last few years. Then 7 months + ago my bowel habbits started to change. I do hate to admit that I could easily beat a good few people witb the quantity and sheer sound with the gas I was able to pass haha however that doesn't happen so much anymore. I have issues relieving and emptying my bowel fully. Going and being able to pass anything sometimes. Some days I can't go at all and I feel pain, pressure, bloating, mucus all the time, loose stool, not a properly formed one in months, always constipated with loose stool, nausea, pain abdoment, back, ive had pain under ribs and chest too. Even if I havent or I have eaten little o will bloating, dont pass gas quite as frequent. Different colour stool from grey to reallt dark, foul smell some smelt like tar I would say. Sorry for TMI. I have had 3 instances of blood. And I have felt a least 3 lumps left side of abdomen and 1 on the right, I have not done a full check.

I was diagnosed with ADHD last year and do take medication, im the beginning my appetite dropped from the medication  ut I started to eat again. I feel weak and tired, I think my Elvanse keeps me going. I used to nap all the time until I started taking it. My appetite isnt good, foods I used to like I struggle to eat, I have lost weight, unsure how much during this whole change to body functions. I have spoke to my GP,  I asked for a CT and colonoscopy as my concern was growing after last 3/4 months but didnt want to feel like I was making things bigger than they were. Partner was and still is concerned. I also have PCOS, and have been suffering with B12 anemia and folate deficiency for a few years too. 

Did a deep dive into my raw Ancestry dna and that came back with multiple health risks, autoimmue and a good few risks for cancer. 

I was told to id need a USS first.

Anyway, im sitting here unable to go to the bathroom properly, in discomfort and pain all day, worried about the 4 lumps i have found and waiting for an appointment. 29th April I informed I was having symptoms and sent my dna findings to inform why I was asking for multiple tests and genetics due to cancer genes found. 12th a USS from GP was requested.

I am a 30 year old female, chronic lifelong mental health, stress. Two children. 

Some days I dont know if im getting more unwell or not. 

I feel a general feeling of being unwell and I cant place it.

I dont have any friends, my partner knows my health ATM and my mum knows a little. It's too much for my partner sometimes with subject matter.