I week ago today I had a Colonoscopy.  I am waiting for my results.

I have never experienced a procedure like this before. I have had similar procedures with sedation, both vaginally and gastric and they were great. Didn't know anything about it until I 'woke up'. No pain and no memory.

This time I didn't feel remotely drowsy and remember every minute of this brutality.  I consider myself to have a high pain threshold but this was really bad. I shouted and screamed and begged for more pain relief. I was given gas and air but it was useless.

I even apologised to the Doctor for making a fuss as I felt embarrassed. They found a polyp and took several biopsies. When I commented in recovery that I was upset by the amount of pain I endured, he only responded with the comment 'It was a difficult procedure'.

I wish I had gone prepared for the trauma I went through but was assured I would feel only mild discomfort. I feel cheated and violated. Have they changed the pain relief medication I wonder?  as I felt alert and wide awake throughout.

I only hope I never have to go through it again.