Hi everyone this is my first post so be kind please  

So I'll try and be brief

Middle.of Feb of this year I discovered a lump on the left hand side of my neck.I didn't think.much of it as I had one in a similar place back in 2012,which did clear up on its own.

I left it about a week before seeing my GP,who immediately referred me to hospital on a 2 week emergency referral. I had a full blood test which came back as normal.

So I went to see the consultant which is now roughly in the middle of March,he basically had a look,including a camera up the nose down to my voice box and said he couldn't see anything there and then,but he would like me to have further tests as in his words it was going to be a long journey. 

I will add at this stage I'm a 51 year old male with a history up until 2 months ago of being a heavy smoker and now 5 years sober regarding alcohol. 

So appointments started to roll in,first was an MRi,which anxiety took over and I couldn't face it.,then a ultrasound/fine needle biopsy (results came back inconclusive)

And then a full body PET CT ,scan where the Dr s analysis of the results were (apart from the neck mass there is nothing else showing up),so does this.now the mass on my neck is cancer if its lit up on the scan?

I'm now on a waiting list for a panendoscopy and possibly removal.of lump.

So here I am ,now nearly 3 months in and as worried as anything.

The lump itself is solid and doesn't move and appears to be growing quite rapidly, now roughly 11cm long by 4 cm wide,I its harder work now to swallow my food and I can feel pressure in behind my ear.

I think it's time for me to really start pushing for me to be seen again,but I know this waiting around won't go on forever but I'm scared.