The waiting for tests and results is definitely the worst thing!! Whichever way it goes it won't always feel like this.  It's also amazing what one finds one can cope with, which one never thought one could ..In the meantime find people to talk to , if getting things off your chest helps you; or visit the GP to talk about medication; or distract yourself / keep busy as much as you possibly can .All the best 

Hang in there Sparky! Waiting is the worst, I find myself just drifting off thinking about test results or intensely doing anything to avoid my mind going down that way. I over kneaded a loaf of bread yesterday, just pummelling the *** out of it to avoid thinking... now we have bread with the texture of biscuit. Are there any hobbies you could try to bury yourself in to keep busy? ie. computer games, I find they are great for escaping reality for a bit. Hope you are doing a bit better today.

Thank you, I love making sourdough I have a starter ready, I’ll get going with a loaf.. I have loads of hobbies I just can’t get any motivation, walked the dogs 5k this morning that was nice then proceeded to watch rhod Gilbert pain in the neck & feel awful again… I’ll try to keep busy & play some games on Xbox or something 

I’m scared of medication for depression etc, I’ll aim to keep busy, waiting for the unknown when you can clearly see & feel something is the worst feeling of dread & hopelessness I’ve ever had, I’ve young kids every time I’m with them it breaks me… not much I can do, I feel like I’ve exhausted my partner she’s more a positive looking person which is a lot easier looking at someone else I guess… I just concede I give up I can’t cope 

I aspire to the heights of sourdough, I keep ending up with what my partner calls dwarf bread (which only makes sense if you are a Terry Pratchet fan). Just know you can always message here and get your worries out of your head. We are here for you.

P.s. what types of dogs do you have? I love anything with 4 legs and fur :D 

A Mexican (Chihuahua) & a Italian greyhound… I hear you re the bread, I wish we did exist on the back of a turtle & thank you, I need the help tbh