I’ve no diagnosis or anything but a month back I was called to Drs surgery following routine blood test.  Various elements of the blood were crazily low or high so he got me admitted to ED.

They did further tests and explained issues and I was given IV top ups over a couple of days.  It was “probably nothing” and maybe I’d need supplements…..  However, the hospital admitted bloods two months earlier showed same dangerous levels but they’d been overlooked accidentally. I’m dealing with that.

My real concern is a conversation I had with a consultant who was asking me lots of detailed questions about lifestyle and family history and went on to suggest that if my bloods don’t improve naturally then there maybe a more significant underlying health issue regarding gastrointestinal matters… she asked about family cancer etc.

Im not stupid but I do overthink.  I have PTSD in relation to hospitals as my 3 month old boy was diagnosed with leukaemia and so we lived for nearly a year in a children’s hospital.  We became used to unexpected bad news coming at any time.

So, my fret is that I’ll be diagnosed with something but I need to wait until next blood tests.  Trouble is I’ve told no one about the “worst case” scenario and the last few days it’s really gripped me.

I have no one I can talk to meaningfully so have been looking at cancer support etc.  MacMillan online chat is down and I am happy to go to a counsellor but there’s a wait.

As far as I know I don’t have cancer so I’m being a bit silly in some people’s eyes - but to me it’s a very real threat and fear.

Anyone know any groups where I’d be able just to chat to someone who’s trained in all that?

Thanks in advance…