Hi everyone! 

Though I don't know if I still have cancer or not, 

I found I had tested positive to my cervical smear test, and found an overwhelming large amount of cells in my cervix that where producing cancer, when going in for my leep treatment,  I have had problems having my check up and they keep bouncing me back and forth not allowing another test, until April, as I keep getting pain in my ovary area now, and ofcourse fearing the worse that it's spread or they missed abit out to lazer and I still have cancer

I'm dealing with a whole load of crazy emotions,- I think it might be delayed shock, its like grieving, shock that me even producing theses kind of cells, really hard, as I've always known to everyone to be super healthy 

It's caused me pain to do yoga and I couldn't swim for months due to healing, I'm struggling with finding ways of relaxing properly,  as for years I relied on yoga and swimming to deal with harder emotions, but everytime I try to do yoga it stops me and makes me emotions worse ,I'm constantly feeling and looking exhausted,  even if I sit and rest, I'm still exhausted,  I just don't know what to do 

Haa anyone have any good relaxation/ help support or know what to do next, I got told today it's still to early for a resmear, and I could have a possibility extremal scan somehow to see if cancer or any other problems down there, but I don't know how to contact for this, is it company that did colospoly or another department. Both gp and nurses being very unhelpful atm 

Thanks