Hi. 

I’m very scared and not sleeping very well. I thought if I write down my thoughts it may help. I found out on Friday that my biopsy results have come back as melanoma. I’ve had a raised pink lesion for around 7 months. I thought it was a spot/bite so wasn’t concerned for a while. It was a friend who encouraged me to get it checked. 

The consultant thought it could be Bowens or inflammatory lesion so didn’t seem concerned. However, I got a biopsy appointment week after due to there being a cancellation  

I knew something was found when they called me last week and asked that I attend clinic the following day, but I didn’t expect melanoma. Even the consultant said it was very unexpected results as it doesn’t look like typical melanoma. 

Im now waiting for plastic surgeons to conduct sentinel lymph node biopsy and wide excision within next two weeks. 

I can’t remember if consultant said what type of melanoma I have but from description I think it’s nodular and that really worries me after having it so long. 

I’m very scared. Not even just about me but worried about how my family will cope with whats to face if this has spread. This fear is keeping me awake and making me so nauseous. Thought if I write my thoughts I could clear my head a bit. 

Take care everyone.