I had a colonoscopy some years ago and was utterly terrified before it.

GP couldn't see or feel anything with me either but it did turn out to be piles. Nurse said that wasn't unusual, for them not to be noticed.

Hope you get good news 

Thank you. I’m starting the prep tomorrow I’m dreading every thing about it my nerves are in pieces  my blood pressure was highly when I went for the face to face yesterday he had to take it three times it went down but still on high side  really can’t get my anxiety under control

 You sound just like me, mine was last week, afraid my news was not good waiting for more tests now and I am terrified, I wish you luck

Mine has been fast tracked, I've got stage 4 and spread to my liver, I've had it for 6-12 months, it's treatable they said, did have another mri on liver and full body scan 3 days ago, they not to worried about liver as they can zap it

9 months of treatment, hopefully no more bad news with other scans, I feel "normal" though, so so strange

Done the bowel screening test a few months ago too, no further investigation they said 

Onwards and upwards  hope it's good news for you all️

Readytobeat, I love your determination and attitude. Truly inspiring to read on a morning like this.

I wish you all the very best in your treatment and am praying for your swift recovery

Thank you, thinking of you James x let us know how you get on

Hello Readyto beat. I've posted it elsewhere on here, but not good news. They found a not-small rectal tumour so it's cancer (or99%) per the colonoscopist.

They did seem to say it should be treatable and curable, but also there need to be scans etc. There was talk that they'd need to see if it had spread and if so that would likely mean chemo and radio. I think they suggested it could likely be treated, but 

I'm so scared

It's not small, so it may well have been there for months. I feel so stupid I didn't do more tests back in the summer when I was diagnosed anemic. 

️  I was told straight away mine was malignant x mine has been there for a year x spread to my liver too x told its treatable x had a call today I start my treatment Friday x mine was fast tracked I had my colonosphy 1st Dec x chin up we've got this x ️ ️

I️️spent 11 days worrying and I cried loads but I'm. Going to take it on the chin x we'll beat it x

️  I was told straight away mine was malignant x mine has been there for a year x spread to my liver too x told its treatable x had a call today I start my treatment Friday x mine was fast tracked I had my colonosphy 1st Dec x chin up we've got this x ️ ️

I️️spent 11 days worrying and I cried loads but I'm. Going to take it on the chin x we'll beat it x

Oh goodness, a year?

So happy yours is treatable. I have been immediately worried that because mine isn't small it may have been there ages and therefore spread and have become top complex.

I imagine every case is unique,  but your example gives me hope.

Right now I'm struggling to remain calm. I know my anxiety is making me ill. I am struggling to eat. Just about getting 1k calories. I suppose that's not unusual. Especially as I only had the procedure today so feel a bit tender everywhere 

I struggled too, I spent 2 weeks after my colonosphy just breaking down, I needed to know what was going on inside my body, I needed answers there and then but they had to do more scans, ive had 4 in total, still waiting for the results on my liver scan 

Once I had the diagnosis I felt "relieved"

I knew what was going to happen and what treatment I was to have

Had a call 2 days ago to go for more blood tests and I start my treatment tomorrow 

It's hard not to worry, if you need to cry, bloody cry

Hope you don't have to wait too much longer xx

The waiting is the worst, but I've now got to be positive xx

I do have a lot of support from my family, and my best friend, that has helped me too

Thank you as ever for sharing. Yes the unknowns must be hard for everyone. And i am someone who struggles with things I can't influence (not in a horrible, manipulative way :) ) 

The colonoscopist told me right away it was cancer, so at least I didn't have to wait on that. The tests are now booked. CT Scan on Monday 13th..MRI on Sat 11th, so I guess as fast as they could realistically be? My wife has been amazing- she chased up radiology to get an appointment. After the initial shock (I told her immediately) for us both, she is being an incredible rock and a force of nature. I am blessed.

I'll keep trying to follow your example and advice, and hopefully get more determined each day.

I hope your treatment starts well tomorrow. Are you having chemo initially? Ill be thinking of you and praying for you.

James 

Yes chemo starts tomorrow, think it's 6 sessions, then radiotherapy, operation then more Chemo, 

It's seems ages away from 1st December when I had my colonosphy to tomorrow when I start my Chemo, seems so unreal as I feel "normal"

Won't tell you not to worry as that's all I did until I had my first outpatients appointment when I was told everything, it's gets a bit "better" then as  you know what treatment you will have xxx