Hi all Please excuse my long descriptive query. I am 55yrs old no longer have a period and my last smear was stupidly ,  10 yrs ago (which I was adamant tt had been 5)the reason I had asked for a smear was due to being very sore and uncomfortable down below and whenever I strained to do a bowel movement I was seeing a tea stained smear when wiping my front . I had just returned from holiday with random blisters on one side of my face (lasted for 6 weeks )and assumed I had cross contaminated my own body Around one week later everything cleared up. 3 months went by when I received a letter to say I had high riisk HPV and abnormal cells I had a Colposcopy. On the 10 December and they removed the abnormal cells using the LOOP DIATHERMY procedure. Now I have been told the cells that were removed are cancerous The surgeon called to say I have to wait 6weeks then have an MRI scan and a meeting for plan of action. I am making myself ill with worry to the extent I’m actually physically sick waiting for more advanced symptoms and can’t stop crying. Has anyone experienced this and had a positive outcome? I don’t know what to expect and if this is curable or treatable I’m all over the place Sorry for such a long post x