Lost - on the 2 week pathway and waiting for second biopsy for gynaecology

Sorry feel rubbish today. Waiting for 2nd biopsy for gyny on the 16th, 1st was inconclusive, and I ended up in a&e after collapsing in hospital cafe. They are doing 2nd under general. I feel poorly, lonely, confused, unsure, lost. I'm usually quite a strong...or I think I am??? Person but maybe I don't cope very well with uncertainty. I'm on 2 week pathway after 1st biopsy on 22/10.

Just not quite sure where to turn, what to do with myself. Only told a couple of friends. I really don't feel like company as energy low and everything hurts, but I feel lonely. 

Christmas is another stress!!

I'm self employed and work from home.

Hope I can shake myself. Guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself!

Not sure if this is even the right place to post this, but I thought I need to at least voice..

  • Hi, I’m so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I hope that your friends are supporting you. It’s a big thing that you are dealing with, go with how you feel. The journey you are on is not one any of us want and therefore there are a range of emotions to deal with that can change a lot. I wish you all the best x

  • Thankyou for your kind reply.

    I got up, got dressed and made a list for the day. It's helps just knowing there are kind thoughtful people in the world.

    Take care yourself. 

  • Hi Blen,

    biopsy of where can I ask? I’m in the same boat of the 2 week wait, mine started Friday. I can’t tell you how long it already feels like it has been. The longest wait of my life.  
    I am 38 and they found a mass 7cm x 6cm on my ovary on a totally unrelated mri completely by accident. The sheer terror that I have is like nothing I’ve been through before. 
    I also work from home and struggling to occupy my mind, I have only told two friends and whilst very supportive, they live far away. 
    I don’t have any words of guidance or advice but just wanted to say you aren’t alone. There is lots of us in the same boat, and it’s awful. Sending big hugs. 

  • Thankyou. So sorry that you and others are facing this too. It's a womb biopsy after a suspected appendicitis, an ultrasound picked up an anomaly, so very similar to you quite by chance it was picked up really...I'm very fortunate  if something has been picked up early. I'm a little older than you.

    My list today was too long...even if i thought it was ok, will adjust tomorrow. Maybe will sleep well though!? Shattered!!! ( and disapointed)

    You are right waiting and uncertainty is awful, I feel isolated as well, although I have a friend who is nearby.

    Take care and thankyou so much.