Having an endoscopy later today

Hi all,

im just frozen with fear. I have posted on here the other day about the endoscopy I have today/this pm. I was due to have one but apparently the wait was very long. I then spoke to my doctor the other week and explained my symptoms. She said she would refer me urgently for an endoscopy. I figured they were being cautious but I have had many of the symptoms for a long time and assumed they were all party of ongoing digestive problems/GERD etc. I do however take Omeprozole 40 mg  daily so imagined that symptoms would stop with this medication.

Just before leaving the house to walk to the  hospital, I thought I would check my NHS app and doctors notes. I was completely shocked to read that they have made a referral for ‘suspected cancer….’

I am literally shaking as no other doctor has mentioned this and some symptoms I have had for many months and more.

I thought an endoscopy looked for so many other things. 

I just cant go ahead and can’t wait for someone to come and tell me after the procedure what they have found. Theo is just too agonising and I am frozen with fear. 

I already feel very weak and wobbly as I’ve just found out that I’m anaemic and I think menopause is hitting me hard, also.

I know it is the right thing to do to have the procedure but I just don’t think I can go ahead. I already feels as though my throat is so tight and I can’t breathe.

can I ask for the doctor to write down (in lay terms) what they found so that I can take this away and digest it when my partner collects me from outside the hospital. I hate the idea of ‘reading’ the consultants face to try and work out what he/she is thinking.

  • I'm so sorry no-one was able to get back to you before you went for your endoscopy on Monday Rafi.

    I know you were very anxious before your appointment but I hope you managed to go ahead and the doctors/nurses were able to put you at ease during the procedure.

    I hope you receive some support from our members soon but if there is anything you'd like to discuss further with one of our cancer nurses, they're available on 0808 800 4040, Monday - Friday between 9a.m - 5p.m. They're very easy to talk to and will do all they can to answer any other questions you may have at this time.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Thanks so much for your reply. You’ve been so kind over the last few days and it really made a big difference to me. The nurses were absolutely fantastic at the hospital and one even sang to me as the endoscopy was about to start. Thankfully nothing sinister was picked up and I’ve been referred for a barium swallow test.  I’ve also had a chest x ray this morning- I’m seeing the NHS at its finest and feel  so grateful for this.

    I have learned a lot over the last few days with the wait and intense worry and I want to do good with this. I am taking some definite actions!

    all the best and thank you again, 

    Sophie