A week ago today after being ill for several days including severe lower back pain I had a massive vaginal bleed and had to be rushed to hospital. Scan showed lining of womb abnormally thick for my age( 53 been on hrt for 9 months) not had a period in 20 years as been on mini pill. 

I have a hysteroscopy on Tuesday and I’m frightened it’s cancer. I’ve had symptoms for over a year but it was put down to menapause. The back pain felt like someone was trying to rip me in two. The bleeding has only just stopped today after being on medication for a week. 

it’s my 5th cancer scare and I can’t shake this bad feeling. I’ve lost my temper a few times this week as all I get is “ you’ll be fine” to me that is completely dismissing my worry. 

I don’t have any females in my life, mum, nan , sister all dead and the few friends I have have let me down majorly.