HI and welcome to the chat.  I am sorry you are going through this.  

It is a rollercoaster of a time so your mind is obviously going to go to extremes and struggle with your emotions.  You did the right thing going to get checked and the biopsy is to give a more definite answer - which isn't known yet.  It doesn't stop your mind going into overdrive especially with you losing your parents to cancer at a young age.  And it certainly will have been a shock.

The waiting is so hard.  Do you have anyone else you can trust to support you? Were you given details of a nurse you can ring to share your thoughts/questions? Macmillan are great, you can order/download information from their website and there is a section 'worried about cancer' with a subsection 'do I have cancer'.  It might help you to have a look.

Although there are many people in similar situations we are all unique, individual and at the same time different whilst being under a huge umbrella of possible/actual diagnosis.  I guess what I am trying to say is you need to look after YOU, deal with what you know, when you know it.  Hoping you manage to eat small/light meals/snacks and rest as much as you can if you are unable to sleep and take some time out to relax and give your mind a break from the constant worry.

Sending hugs and positivity for strength x

This was the longest wait ever, I was lucky and it was all ok. Stay positive, I put it in the mental box until the day of the appointment , just my way of coping but you have done the right thing and if it’s good and early that’s the main thing. Sending love and positivity