I hope you all do t mind me jumping on this thread, I have been reading all your comments as I am just starting this awful journey and I honestly don’t know what to do. I feel incredibly lost. My family have been great but they don’t understand how I’m feeling. I’m having so many feelings of doom. I can’t help but think the absolute worst. I had my colonoscopy yesterday, they found a polyp which was 2cm, even I know it looked bad. They tattooed it and took samples. Then I was kept back for the dr to speak to me afterwards but deep down I knew it was bad. They also took bloods while I was there, CEA? I think. Me and my mum were called into a room and the dr said it did look very suspicious and they are treating it so, he said he could t say for sure what it was but I feel like he was just trying to spare me a bit as I was crying. He said a CT would be arranged urgently then that and the biopsy results would be discussed on Monday in the MDT meeting. I’m having my scan tomorrow morning. I had a call from the colorectal nurse and I was asking if there’s still a chance this was benign? She was honest and said they don’t think so but obviously could t say for definite. She went on to talk about surgery and possible treatment afterwards. I’m just devastated. I feel like my life has just stopped and I can’t help but think of the worst case scenario. Me and my husband were meant to be starting IVF this month but obviously that’s now on hold and I just think, will I actually get a chance to do it? I’m sorry to dump this on you all, especially when you’re going through such difficult times. I’m just desperate for any comfort or anyone who understands this feeling x