Thanks for replying. It's nice to hear. Just a bit down today. In the house alone and overthinking! And crying! Thanks again. Xx

 Nanibamp  oh lovely many of us have been there :( if I could give you a big hug I would. Remember you have been put in a scary unknown situation but your thoughts are not what will happen and there really are so so many possibilities and options. I had no idea about any of this till I was in it myself. You arent alone, we are here and know/understand how you feel. Xxxx

 Rambleon88  The final one! That's such a milestone and definitely one to celebrate. I hope this cycle is kind to you. My PICC line came out around day 12 of the cycle and I was so glad to see the back of it. I started to lift the lockdown around 2 weeks after the cycle and I'm so glad to be able to do more things now - like going to stay and learn sessions at the kids school this week. My 5 year old was so pleased to see me there this time :)   However we haven't had the family come to stay yet. I  wanted to get past radiotherapy first and then we've got 3 lots of belated Christmas weekends planned in April and May.  My advice is don't put too much on yourself. I'm told radiotherapy fatigue peaks at 2 weeks post treatment but that fatigue after chemo and radiotherapy can last up to a year. 

I would also echo your thanks to all as its really helped me too. Big virtual hugs to all. Xx

 RedRuth84  Awe bless you hearing your little 5 year old was so happy instantly made me smile! Thank you lovely, at the moment its just me and my son as my husband is away with work but starting to plan a little day trip for after chemo but before radiotherapy when the hubby gets back :)!! Its weird as it feels like so much has happened yet normal life pretty much plodded along inbetween the madness.

Thats so exciting with your festive weekends, the kiddos will love that!  
 I can imagine with the picc, its one of those things that Im grateful for although I feel like it added another layer of “life has gotten very weird very suddenly!!” Was yours okay coming out? The nurses keep saying how easily they come out! 

I think it will take a while for the dust to settle, our minds and bodies have been through an awful lot. 

Looking forward to having that sense of bodily autonomy again and getting into some fitness as I find I feel so much better for being active, plus all my clothes are now currently too small for me. 

Sending hugs :) 

Xxxxx

It is weird going through chemo and feeling totally awful for a few days but everything else keeps going. It amazing that you've got plans for when your husband gets back. I hope you've got help in the meantime. I always really struggled the weekend after the cycle on the taxol. 

The PICC line removal was so quick and simple. I was dreading it after the awful trauma of taking 4 attempts to get it in. But it was a 1 minute and totally pain-free job! Hurrah! They do make you sit for 15 minutes before you can go. But otherwise it was easy and quick.

I've been keeping up the walks to and from school and walking the dog. So I've kept some exercise up and its bee  good for me. I hope you can get back to some exercise, particularly if you enjoy it. I know they recommended a mix or cardio and weight training to keep in remission. I'll have to look into this further as gyms really aren't my thing. But it's all about self confidence in how we look too that's important. Xx

Hi lovely to hear that your chemo is done! And line is out! We'll I've had a positive biopsy. Told by gp at my request. Had a melt down and went to see him. He was amazing. Gave really good coping advice and diazepam!! Got an appointment on Monday for the plan. Looks localised on written report  but who knows! I'm still in meltdown and crying all the time! Causing headaches! Caught a cold too, so all these extra symptoms are throwing up further questions now!! Like has it spread, is that why I'm coughing and aching, breathing funny, chest pain!! Omg!! I'm a mess!! I'm outta control and spinning it.cant wait to get some answers. With that in mind, did anyone ask for a full scan? Was it offered? 

 Nanibamp oh lovely Im sorry to hear your biopsy was positive. Your in one of the hardest times in this process and I know myself and many others will tell you, it gets easier once you have a plan in place. 
I was given a CT scan from thorax to I cant quite remember where but I remember thinking “Oh thats pretty much all of me” I also had a MRI but In my case the MRI wasnt the best as I some how managed to nail “Small, dense yet droopy boobs!” all in one. 
It really does feel like free falling, I hope you find the diazepam helpful, I know I certainly did. 
Your body right now will be all aches and pains as you process the complete and utter shock of a positive biopsy and between the cold and crying having a headache would be expected lovely :-( your body will be so tense and its a mental rollercoaster. Try not to let your mind play tricks on you. Sending massive hugs xxxx

Hope they offer me that too! Congrats on the boob status! Truly nailed it!    I know in reality that I'm overthing every ache and pain, but that's me! Always been the same.! Hopefully you're right, that as soon as I get  a plan, I'll cope.better. my poor husband is bearing the brunt of it all right now. He doesn't know what to do for me. Roll on Monday!

I'm so sorry to hear those results Nanibamp   However, as Rambleon88  has said once you hear a plan it does get easier to deal with. It provides reassurance. I didn't have a full scan. They did request a further MRI as the boob one showed something on my liver which they had to investigate (but thought it was nothing concerning). So I had a further MRI and it was just cysts (which are apparently very common).   Things tend to move quickly now. Make sure you put a list of questions together to take with you on Monday. It does help. Keep positive.