Am with you Annette,and the feeling is just awful,especially the unknown,it just sends your head into overtime and such an overwhelming feeling to deal with. I have everything crossed for you for Friday,sending you the biggest hugs,like it's already been said,you can beat anything,even if right now it feels like everything is falling apart. Take care of yourself. Suzanne x

 TM1  I'm glad to hear that you had a lovely Christmas. That's really important.  I'm sorry to hear that the fatigue is so bad after radiotherapy. I hope it improves quickly. What have your team said about this? I hope you can manage through work. Going back to a particularly busy period isn't helpful. 

I've just been discussing the fatigue element of this treatment with my husband as the mother in law wants to visit for half term and I'm not sure I can face it. She disrupts our lives like nothing else and exhausts the girls and then it takes weeks to get them back on an even keel. So I'm really not keen on the idea. I've said we need to wait and see what the next steps are first. We had originally said that all family will be invited back for fake Christmas when I've finished active treatment and I've recovered a bit.  She's pushed back numerous times already but we've stated strong so far but I can see my husband's will to do so waining as she's using emotional blackmail. Personally I think she shouldn't be doing this, but it's her all over (her needs are more important than anyone else's). Xx

 Suzanne73  and Annette79  My heart really goes out to you. Try and keep positive.  If the results are bad news, then having a plan from your doctors really does help and the fear of the unknown is the worst. Dr Liz O'Riordan and others refer to it as scanxiety and it really is the right term for it.   I really hope that you do get good news, but if it isn't you are developing a community here who are really supportive and have been a real help to me. 

Take care of yourselves and hug your loved ones close. X

You too suzanne and I am here always of you need to reach out. Everything you said I completely relate too. I went through it exactly the same. 

Big hugs xxx

Just an update,my results appointment was brought forward to today,and unfortunately I have been diagnosed with triple negative cancer. It's fast growing but still in early stages. I am going to hav surgery and 6 t 9 months of chemotherapy but they haven't decided which way yet. They have a meeting on Friday morning to decide. Am overwhelmed and in massive shock. But no way this is beating me, nd now I start my journey of hard struggle and treatment,but I will come out the other side. Thank you all for lovely words over past few days ️ ️ ️

Oh Suzanne sending a massive hug. I am sorry to hear your news, its something that hits like a hurricane and there is no right or wrong way to respond. You will find your rhythm even though some days will be tougher than others. Be kind to yourself.

In the early days a really lovely breast cancer nurse told me “this is a step by step process, you’l get through it just take it step by step”. Ive found this 100% true. 
I wont fib to you chemo is hard but its doable and there is so much support out there! Im at the half way mark now which feels like its weirdly flown by.

You got this and you have us! Our paths may all look a little bit different but we are all here. Xx

Hi Suzanne. I'm really sorry to hear this. However as you say you will come through this. Keeping a positive attitude is so important. Having a plan really helps to focus this mind, I found. Hopefully this will be the same for you. I really do recommend the services of Breast Cancer Now. The seminars  the Someone Like Me service and their group meetings. 

Take it step by step. Wishing you all the best. X

Hi all. I just wanted to check in with you all and see how you are doing. 

I'm in the worst of my side effects from my last chemo treatment. Im hoping things pick up from tomorrow. But I'm glad it will be the last chemo treatment. 

My tumour markers  were back under 30 on Monday so that's a relief. I was very worried about that. I got back to a 75% Docetaxel dose (I has a 60% dose on Christmas Eve) I now move to radiotherapy. I have the planning CT scan on 3rd Feb and start the 20 sessions over 4 weeks on 10th Feb. My oncologist also said that they can start the hormone treatment at the same time so I'm seeing her on 3rd Feb for that too.

Sending big virtual hugs to everyone. Xx 

Hi RedRuth,

I hope that you start feeling a little better soon. So, you're now on the last chemo? I'm sure that you'll be glad to have that behind you. I am glad to see that all is in place for you to start your radiotherapy in February and to learn that you can start your hormone therapy at the same time.

Here's hoping that you sail through it all.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx