Oh lovely I just want to give you a hug. 
You arent a failure, your a fighter whos been thrown in the ring at complete random. I hope it eases for you, its so hard this time of year too. 

Apologies if its too personal but how have you found yourself hormonally? I get quite teary every now and again but Im also waking up at some point almost every night boiling hot with hot flushes so I think between chemo and my Zoladex implant Im also entering the throws of menopause. Thats got to be contributing to how we feel too. 

How is your hair? Mine was bizarre, gave myself a buzzcut and my hair was in my scalp like it had been gorilla glued until one random Friday evening where the littlest touch to my head saw it fall out in clumps!! Within 3-4 days I was completely bald apart from whats like white peach fizz on my scalp and some random sprigs that must just be warrior hairs or something as they are stuck in! I look like a newly hatched baby bird! 

Its so weird how there are such slight differences to how we are being treated! Im told to do mine day 3 but day 3 is also my first day off the steroids so its like a double whammy and I just enter the phase of crawling under a rock. 

Had the good news yesterday that I can stop the blood thinning injections Monday and move onto tablets! My stomach is black and blue so cannot wait to not have to do that daily!

2 MORE INFUSIONS TO GOOOOOOO thats awesome news hon your so so close to the finishing line now, you got this!! 

What month does that put you finishing in?

Ive got my 3rd EC 18th and 4th is apparently booked for New Years day! Then Im on to Picataxel for 4 rounds fortnightly. So fingers crossed and subject to things going to plan I finish chemo end of Feb/early March xxxx

Thank you :)

I haven't been given Zoladex yet but I have been getting hot flushes at night at times.  Hormonally otherwise fairly OK to be honest. I did have one period whilst on chemo so far at the end of Oct/beginning of November but not one since. 

My hair started coming out in clumps around 14 days after my first treatment.  I had a buzz cut short but not all off. I've still got some and more than I expected to be honest. My leg hair hasn't come out either. 

Ah it's good news you can stop those daily injections!!  Ah you are having paclitaxel!  Again it's all different treatments. 

My last treatment should be 15 Jan if all goes to plan. Next one is 24 Dec. Then onto radiotherapy. I don't know how long the wait for that is after chemo. Then 10 years of hormone treatment. X

Oh my gosh the 15th of Jan will be here before you know it too, especially with Christmas around the corner!! Its wild how far we have come hon from those early days to now the joys of chemo.

 Zoladex so far has been okay although Ive got to nip to the out of hours GP now just to check if this really mild spotting Ive had is Zoladex or a early infection. 
Im not sure if Im having radiotherapy yet, initially I was a bit taken aback by my onco even suggesting  it as Ive had a mastectomy and my surgeon said I wouldnt have it. Now Im here in chemo throws though a part of me is like “ ah *** it when in Rome” so will take it if offered. Not sure if Im having it yet though. 
Im doing the 10 years tamoxifen, 3 years Zoladex with the bone strengthening injections every 6 months I think. I have been looking into a hysterectomy though and wondering if to push for it.
Earlier today I ripped up all of my old appointment letters, dont know why I’d kept them as seeing them just made me feel rubbish but it felt good tear them up and lob them in the bin. From hear on out Im ticking off each hurdle and trying my best not to hold on to hurdles past!!

keep me posted how you get on lovely!!  
Here if you ever need to chat or vent xxxx

How did you get on with the out of hours GP? 

I has a lumpectomy and reconstruction so I'm definitely in for Radiotherapy. I'm also ticking off each milestone! It's a big achievement. 

I've also been considering a hysterectomy rather than the injections. I don't like injections and to be honest life and work is so busy the idea of regulated time out for injections is really off putting when it's not 100% either. I'm in for AIs and biosphonates rather than tamoxifen. 

I can totally understand why you'd shread all the letters. I've kept them for the meantime. But I got rid of other paperwork. 

Hope you've had a lovely weekend. Xx

Morning lovely!  

Well turns out I had a very early very mild infection so luckily nipped it in the bud early and on a three day course of antibiotics now. 
Ah that makes sense, I had a mastectomy with no recon so my surgeon was sure radiotherapy was off the table but the oncologist is open to it! 

Oncology are of the mindset of Im otherwise healthy and young so lets launch everything at this and hopefully be one and done! 

I hate your in this position but I am relieved Im not alone in thinking about a hysterectomy! It sounds a lot but I think a part of me would be more comfortable having it. I may be being very naive to what it all entails in comparison though, I need to look into it more but Im just taking it all step by step. 

Had a lovely weekend thank you hon, hope you did too! Ive got EC round 3 Wednesday if all goes to plan so prepping to be out of action this weekend now! 

Take care lovely xxxx

Ah I'm glad you've caught the infection early.  Hope it's easing now. 

Your oncologists view is right I think. That's why I was suprised that they said no chemo for me initially. Especially with a 44mm cancer. But hey ho, we are where we are now. 

Yes I'm taking it all step by step too. I'm definitely going to speak to my oncologist about the options. 

I hope this round of treatment is kind to you!  And I hope that you feel more human by Christmas Day. Xx

Hi Ladies, I don't think I'm getting notifications :-(, trying to read through your posts....you both really are so brave and beautiful, going through this. Sounds like you both got this....I really hope you ok as best can be....I'm struggling with complete exhaustion, yawning like Bagpuss all day long.. .had my bone scan on Friday and that was so straight forward. I'm taking tablets to combat tiredness and vitamins for my bones. My hands, fingers and knees ache so much. Still not sleeping great. Love to you and keep strong.....xxx

Put a post on hun...xxx

Sorry meant to say I've put post on hun....xx