I just can’t get out of my head the thought that I might not be around to see my chns next birthday n awful thoughts like that

 Kwoody Thats exactly how I felt, its just a really scary time and whilst there is nothing I can say that may take that fear away right now know it does get easier when you know what you are facing. Take it all one step at a time, day by day. Xxxx

My partner has stage 4 melanoma so I'm freaking out at needing a mammogram even though I know it could be anything. Reading your stories I'm glad you're finding strength from each other. I'm just trying to sit on things until I know more but I've got sirens going off as ridiculously early as that is because I can't afford to be sick too. Kids are 6 and 10. So as unreasonable as it is I'm venting in cancer chat. It's just like F* cancer for existing. Too many people affected or scared by it. Everyone's been touched by it whether as sufferers or carers. I hope we can prevent it one day.

Oh Lyns its not unreasonable at all!! You have young children to protect and a poorly partner, you already have a lot on your plate, just wish I could give you a hug and make you a brew.

You are doing the right thing getting checked, scary as it all is its the first step towards health if you do have it. Its more often than not benign as there are many things that can go on inside a boob that aren't cancer. 

There is a lot of comfort that can be found here, even if its just that reassurance that how you feel is normal and others feel it too.

If you don't mind me asking lovely how old are you? Its really early days yet and its more likely that you dont have cancer than you do but if you do there is so much specific support out there from younger ladies groups, type specific support and so on. My advice don't lean into google too much. Be kind to yourself xxxx

I'm 42, I was 32 when I had my eldest. My dad's adopted so I don't even know a full familial history. I had an ovarian scare 4 years (I think) ago and it was not cancer though it did need removing. They were so concerned they offered a hysterectomy but I went with the ovary removal and biopsy first so I'm familiar with the head swimming fears. I just wish there were instant answers. I had hoped the GP would say I was imagining the lump.

Oh I can relate to the wishing the GP saying its in my head! I didn't even have a lump myself or the GP could feel, just a little dent that I genuinely thought was due to weight loss.  
Oh lovely I hear you, the limbo is one of the worst parts and Im just so sorry you have been through something similar in the past. Hopefully this is much of the same though and is not cancer but you have done the right thing in getting seen and taking those steps. 
I have no family history of breast cancer so naively wasn't expecting to have it at all especially at 36. I was gobsmacked to see even younger women with it in the clinic. 
I know its so hard to do but try not to look too far ahead and work with only what you know to be the facts relative to you. In my earlier days I googled and obsessed out of fear until I made myself ill but only my medical team know whats relative to me. 
Outstanding support is out there though, here and Breast Cancer Now have brilliant forums and we are here if you need to talk/vent xxx

Oh I can relate to the wishing the GP saying its in my head! I didn't even have a lump myself or the GP could feel, just a little dent that I genuinely thought was due to weight loss.  
Oh lovely I hear you, the limbo is one of the worst parts and Im just so sorry you have been through something similar in the past. Hopefully this is much of the same though and is not cancer but you have done the right thing in getting seen and taking those steps. 
I have no family history of breast cancer so naively wasn't expecting to have it at all especially at 36. I was gobsmacked to see even younger women with it in the clinic. 
I know its so hard to do but try not to look too far ahead and work with only what you know to be the facts relative to you. In my earlier days I googled and obsessed out of fear until I made myself ill but only my medical team know whats relative to me. 
Outstanding support is out there though, here and Breast Cancer Now have brilliant forums and we are here if you need to talk/vent xxx

Hi hun, got a friend request from a Paul5, I've had to remove, it was clear it wasn't for me, asking if I was a nurse and saying they couldn't sleep and saying I sound like a really nice person and asking twice where I was from....gave me the creeps, just watch out...hope you're OK hun. I'm knackered after being in work. Think I'll find out this week what tablets I'll be on as letter appeared on my app to my doctor and I get copied in....I'll let you know.. xx

Oh dear thank you lovely will do!! Yes as much as I hope this person is okay you have to follow your intuition!! How are you feeling now lovely has the pain eased up at all? I saw these little mini heatpacks for gloves in my local Lidils and thought of you and how something like that could help with nerve pain! Yes keep me posted and let me know how you get on with your docs!
I nipped to my GPs today and it set me off a little bit. Ive been congested for a while so wanted to get it checked before chemo encase its a sinus infection and Im just struggling to trust my body again at the moment, the littlest ache or twinge makes me nervous. My GP was incredibly kind and feels its just a post nasal drip but wanted to talk to me about BC, how she couldn’t believe I had it and how the age of screening needs to change. Just set me off then, Im stoic until someone shows me sympathy then Im blubbing! Xxxx

Your exactly same as me hun, someone mentions BC and I'm in flipping tears....what a pair we are....oooohhh good idea about heat pads. I'll keep an eye out, pain not too bad today so hopefully it's starting to ease. In fact I'm just about to set off for a walk with my dog, first in ages for me....I'll be more knackered lol xxx 

:-D honestly I walked in like “Yes Im fine how are you?” And as soon as she showed me the smallest amount of sympathy Im there like here comes the water works!! They looked fab hon check them out, Im sure amazon sell them to but they looked dinky enough to carry around compared to a hot water bottle. Enjoy your walk lovely, its piddling down here so my dogs are sprawled on my sofa xxx

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Aww thanks sweet, had a lovely power walk, it's a mild enough evening here, I had too many layers on so was sweating when I got in. He's curled up now on sofa lol. Xxx

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