So happy you've booked your holiday, that's brilliant, have a lovely relaxing time, you so deserve it....xxx

Thank you both. The hubby and kids are very excited lol!! 

The drain is sore. But it's only a week. Just be careful not to pull it.  They said I would stay in overnight (because I had small kids) but it was hot and they said I would be more comfy at home and I definitely was glad to be home. Honestly the recovery wasn't as bad as I expected. Xx

Oooohhh glad your off the diazapam that's good to hear. I'm more at grips with it it's the waves of worry that comes over...I'll be bricking it to on day of operation, not been under anesthetic for years, when I had my tonsils out....trying not to think about it at the moment....they told me ill be out same day so hoping I'll be hoping same, first thing and less time to sit and s@myself xxx

Hi TMI,

You are bound to get more up tight as your operation date draws closer. I was really bricking it on both occasions that I went in for surgery, as I have previously stopped breathing on the operating table. Both operations were very straightforward, although I was kept in hospital for 4 days after my double mastectomy. The staff were really excellent. 

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

How are you feeling today lovely? Hope your doing okay. Its a bloody emotional minefield and totally can relate to it being in waves.

Sometimes Im okay and feel brave others Im just still blindsided this is actually happening. Got a face to face meeting with my surgeon tomorrow to run through what to expect and my mastectomy booked in for the 4th. Xxx

Hi hun, not too bad, I'm finding early evening difficult especially if nothing to watch on TV , that wave comes over me and I'm in tears. I feel a bit awful really as you're going through much more than me, but we all here for the same reason....aww I hope your face to face meeting goes well, get your questions or concerns ready hun.   Week tomorrow is my operation and God knows how ill feel this time next week. I'll be thinking of you hun. Think going to work is helping though as I feel normal if that makes sense and a distraction to....keep telling myself I can do this with my partner by my side and my lovely daughter, both making me smile xxx

Yesterdays appointment went well, signed off on the surgery and all booked in for the 4th. My surgeon isnt big into drains so hoping I wont have one and as Im opting not to have reconstruction the surgery should be shorter. If everything goes well and he can see to me first hes hoping I can go home same day.

My god though had that Magtrace injected yesterday which I didnt realize was happening until I was there. Anyone reading this before having magtrace, it doesn't last very long but it is a bit of a stinger of a injection.  

Hope your enjoying your weekend TM1  Im not sure what to do with my work, whilst Ive been off my boss has been fired so its all very turbulent. Got a feeling with everything going on atm Im better off away from my work! Xxx

Hi hun, been thinking about you and wondered how you got on, all sounds positive then...I had the magseed and that felt different to, sure she went in in a different place but it's rice size seed that goes into the tumour..just been doing house work and kept thinking hmm how will I be this time next Saturday....that's a shock about your boss, blooming eck, think you are better off away from it, you don't need the stress of work as well......I hope the weather improves whilst I'm off work lol...funny weather at the moment....its the thought of an operation that I'm worried about but suppose that's only normal xxx

How are you lovely? Thinking of you. Just think by this weekend you will be the other side of the surgery. 
completely relate to the “how will I be this time next Saturday”.

Ive been finding it so strange that this weekend is my last weekend with both boobs. Its the testing bit after surgery Im starting to dread now. I feel a bit like Im heading back to “after biopsy” territory all over again. X