You're exactly right hun, like you say, what's for tea etc etc, normal life, now it's upside down. As for lighter duties, she's so unapproachable hun, Devil Wears Prada, only 10 times worse....!!! Not joking either. Got fab news yesterday as my daughter got offered a job, omg so proud of her.. we needed some good news...I've decided I'm not going to get stressed and what doesn't get done well tough...I'm usually organised and on top of stuff but hey life's too short and we have enough to deal with don't we...be in control of the diazapam hun, they are good, but like you say don't rely on them...hugs right back at you...xx

Lol devil wears prada! Its such a shame, before all of this I managed a small team in work and would never dream of being anything other than there for a team member who needed space and support. Thats amazing news with your daughter sending my congratulations!! 
Definitely with the diazapam, its incredibly effective but I dont want to rely on it and god forbid end up with troubles with that on top! Xx

I managed a team of 27 for nearly 27 years, got made redundant back in 2014, never treated my staff badly especially when everything was stacked against them...world of work...ffs lol. I will tell my daughter for you...thank you. 

What time is your scan tomorrow? Be thinking about you. Xx

Sounds like you were a lovely manager, work is work but we are all only human and sometimes the chips are up sometimes they are down and we should all be there for eachother. Thats how I managed my team. 

my CT is at 9:40. My husband cant make it so dropping my son down my sisters so he can play with his cousins with my brother in law keeping an eye and my sister can come with me. No idea when Il get the results from it as the MDT meeting is every Friday and I have a feeling it will miss tomorrows so really hoping Im not left wondering till the 19th.

The littles ache and pain is just playing with my mind lately. Im finding it really difficult to live in the moment xxx

I hope everything goes well today. The waiting is horrid. I had chest and sternum pain and I was convinced it was I  my lungs already. But honestly it's the stress and anxiety. It does horrible things to our body. Hopefully you will get a quick result and go to MDT. 

I'm still waiting on the oncotype DX result and it's driving me mad. Literally everything is on hold waiting for that. We are hoping to book a holiday in a couple of weeks but we don't know when the next appt will be so we are waiting for the results before booking it. Apparently chemo planning appts are quicker than radiotherapy ones.  Its dtiving me slightly nuts that one sent from the trust on the sane day as mine was back on Monday but im still waiting :(Xx

Thank you so much lovely, my CT is tomorrow but omg Im exactly the same. My throat feels tight and my shoulders and chest/ribs feel tight and uncomfortable and its playing tricks on me :-(. Oh bless you I hope it all goes well for you and you can book your holiday soon! Where are you thinking of going? How are you finding surgery recovery? Ive got a little night away booked in December for the Harry Potter studio experience and really hoping for my son that I can still go. I have no idea what to expect or what anything is going to look like, feel like Im running with my eyes closed at the moment. Xxx

We are thinking of going to Crete. We love it there. Just need a get away and chill.  Hopefully you'll be fine for December.  Hopefully your surgery will be only a couple of weeks after the final plan is agreed. 

Surgery recovery hasn't been as bad as I expected. You do need to do the exercises though. They are a must!  I was back to doing the school walk within 5 days. You can't lift or carry anything heavy for a number of weeks. You can't drive for 4 or more weeks.  But I'm 6 weeks post surgery and mostly back to normal now. I'm still being a little careful carrying and lifting. Xx

Aww glad you have company tomorrow, stay strong....I know what you mean about aches and pains, I'm over thinking all the time now, it's awful...I've got to wait until a week tomorrow when I go for tge magseed to go in and then pre-op. Luckily its my partners day off, so he's taking me..xx

Woo Crete is supposed to be beautiful! Yes, get away and chill after everything certainly sounds in order. Im blown away by just how fast life can turn upside down, not that I was naive to it all but at 36 I just thought it would be a cyst!. 
Im so glad your surgery recovery has been better than expected! Fingers crossed your oncgotype comes back fast and you wont require chemo so you can get away xxx