HI Famblon88,

I am sorry you are going through all this.  Hopefully it will help you being on here and being able to voice concerns and get some feedback.  You have done the right thing in being checked. It is a really scary and worrying time but you need to know facts which is why they are doing the tests..  It''s easier said than done but try to focus on the here and now when your thoughts start to spiral.  It really can be torturous and is certainly a rollercoaster of thoughts/feelings/emotions.

Did they say it is cancerous or did they say they suspect/have concerns?  It is so hard to remember when one minute you are floating through life then faced with all that you went though. Either way they are going to find out for you.  Either way. Don't be too hard on yourself, lots of TLC and support from here and your family.  Sending hugs x

Hi Rambleon88,

A very warm welcome to our forum, although I'm sorry to hear why you've joined us.

A suspected cancer diagnosis always throws us and is seldom something that we're prepared for. It throws us into a tail spin of "what ifs" and our minds are all over the place. Most of us become very tearful, but don't worry about this, as shedding those tears is a great stress reliever. Doctors don't mince their words if they suspect something concerning. I have been told on three occasions that my lump was "suspicious". In one case, biopsy proved them wrong, but they were right in the other two. That was all fifteen years ago now and I feel very grateful to still be living a busy and fulfilling life.

It is always a worry waiting for your results and the way you feel is perfectly normal, given the circumstances. The titanium clips are put in to mark the suspect areas. This a a routine procedure. Have you been given a date for your MRI yet? It is always frustrating when you need these additional tests, but it is good in the long term, as it shows that your consultant and his/her team is doing a thorough job. It shouldn't be much longer before you get your results now. Irrespective of the outcome, you will feel better, once you know what you are dealing with.

Most of us forget about 80% of what is discussed during a consultation, before we leave the hospital grounds. It is always a good idea to write down any questions you may have, before you attend any appointments. This ensures that you don't forget something important, in the heat of the moment. It can also be helpful to have someone attend the consultations with you.

Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hello both,

Massive hugs to you both.

Thank you so much for responding. 
I have never been in a limbo like this, its just so brutal. 

The consultant said something along the lines of he really didnt like the look of the two lumps and suspects malignancy, he then really quickly mentioned something about possible breast surgery. I was in a complete daze though, I think I just went “Oh, okay, thank you”’and that was it. 
I think they said a MRI a week Monday but sooner if there is a cancelation but I may have had that wrong. 

There were two training nurses in the room, one being sort of assigned to me from now until diagnosis. I hope maybe Im just reading way to much into it but the whole thing felt like he already knew and is just confirming it. 

I feel a total mess though, Im sleeping okay but really struggling to eat and the mornings just feel horrendous right now. 
I go from feeling so relieved that I found this little dent to absolutely terrified of the what if its spread and how desperately I love my family and want a long life with them. I keep having to wear sunglasses all the time right now to hide the fact Im randomly crying. The speed my life has just completely flipped in wild.

xxx

Hello everyone.

hope your day is going well.

gosh Im really struggling with the biopsy limbo. I just cant believe the speed Ive gone from being frustrated with work to wishing so hard It hurts that I could just go back to that time in my life where I wasn't completely terrified. Has anyone tried Diazepam to take the edge off? Ive reached out to my GP and explained how I was feeling and have some to pick up later today. Its the mornings Im finding so so hard right now. To anyone else in this limbo, Im so sorry your in this boat because this really sucks. Il hold your digital hand if you need xx 

Hi Rambleon88, your situation sounds similar to mine, recalled after a mammogram via letter and appointment was following day! I was in absolute bits, crying and the fear of the unknown. My mum and partner came with as I knew I couldn't do this alone. More mammograms, ultrasound and biopsy all in one afternoon, I've never felt so scared in my entire life, crying constantly. The wait is the worse for actual results. That came Friday just gone, i did try going back in work but there was a moment I completely broke down, I felt on the outside looking in, wanted to scream out loud. I left work in a state and the drive home, well I just don't remember that. Work not paying me now....well I know now I have stage 1 breast cancer. The Professor was amazing and  it's treatable, waiting on date for operation now. I went through every scenario possible to man whilst waiting even bloody googled stuff, don't do that! I know I'm going to be fine, small steps to get to the other end...but it's the mental health side of it all and the financial side which is effecting me more!! Stay strong if you can lovely, your not on your own x

Hi Rambleon88, to be honest I still finding it difficult to process, it's the shock hun, knowing I now have cancer no matter what stage it is, I'm still scared, having to face an operation, which I believe will be around 20mins or so...its the after bit, the pain, the soreness, I'm *** with pain . Then tablets for 5 years... omg so much to take in....hence I needed time away from work  

I just can't paint that happy face at the moment. I've never done anything like this to, I don't even "hang my washing out" on Facebook like some do lol . But I believe this is good to talk on here, we have loved ones around us and friends etc..but this is different in that we can talk to each other and hopefully support each other. 

Stop googling please, there are far too many sites and we'll not always helpful. You'll get all info from your team at hospital should it be that way....I too have the clips in...walked out of M&S yesterday and the alarm went off...I did wonder  was that me and my clips.....gotta make myself laugh otherwise ill be crying again. Keep in touch your in safe hands xx

Definitely take the time off work lovely! The whole situation is traumatic and the last thing you need is work stress on top. Im off work right now, its one of those environments where everyone is lovely but its incredibly fast paced and I just cant deal with it right now. 
Totally agree, Im holding it together for my son and husband and desperately trying to be positive but its so hard without knowing what Im up against. For some weird reason its the early morning I find it most difficult and my emotions are the most raw.

I promise Il try to stop with google, its sufficiently terrified me! 
Keep your chin up lovely and yes definitely keep in touch!!! Xxxx

You to hun, try and have a nice evening. My fella on his way over so he'll keep me smiling xxx

Hi Rambleon88

I'm so sorry you are in the boat.  Waiting for the biopsy result was the worst part of my whole journey. The fear of the unknown is the worst.  Once I had my treatment plan set out I felt better due to something happening. I'm 39 and have 2 young girls. I was diagnosed on 19 April with a 44mm Grade 1 ER/PR positive tumor. I had surgery on 26th June and I have my post op pathology results appt next Monday to determine my next treatment steps.  

My advice is to try and keep things normal and try and keep your mind occupied until you get your results. X