Hi Rach 

Thanks so much for reaching out.  Really do appreciate it.

I had a look at another thread you posted and read through the article the mod shared about waiting for news.  Whilst it's great advice, it's really hard not to worry whilst you're waiting.

Have you heard back from your MRI?  Or do you know how long the feedback will take?

Do you have someone you can talk to in your family or a friend for support?

Happy to stay in touch

Rebecca x

Hi Rebecca 

thank you for your lovely message 

how are you bearing up today?

I hope you’re doing okay and enjoying the gorgeous weather 

I’m still waiting for the results 

I'm not too sure where the results will go ? I don’t know if they’ll go to my GP or the hospital 

There’s a part of me that wants to contact the gynae department but part of me just doesn’t want to know just yet as if it’s sinister my world is going to turn upside down 

Yes, I have a fantastic support network but it’s hard when you’re alone with your feelings and thoughts isn’t it 

How are you coping ? Do you find it’s better to be socialising and keeping yourself busy 

Rach x 

Hi Rach

I'm doing okay today - the sunny weather definitely helps.

I normally try to get out and walk the dogs when things aren't in a good place so that's off the cards today.

I don't have a network - just me, hubby and my 14 yo.  My mum passed away unexpectedly last year at just 68 so I'm really paranoid about something bad happening to me as in the last four years, my poor daughter has lost both grandparents, my grandad (her great grandad), her father (he stopped seeing her when she was diagnosed with diabetes in 2020), her pancreas to Type 1 diabetes and my estranged father died last year too at 70.  She didn't know him but there's been a huge lot of loss for her and I hope that this is just a blip - she doesn't deserve any more heartache.  I've no siblings and my two close friends have their own stuff going on and don't need this hopefully non-event on their plates.

I'm also highly attuned to every niggle now.  I think I'd gotten used to the fact that my right side of my pelvis hurt all the time but now it seems really heightened.  I've been catastrophising about headaches (probably just tired and dehydrated) and other ailments I've had this past year all being linked which isn't good.

Hubby has gone away for the weekend too so trying to stick a brave face on for DD.  Not so bad when it's school/work but have to think of something to occupy our weekend as it was just meant to be quiet but now I need some distraction.

As for results, I have the patient access app so you can sometimes see them on there before a letter arrives through the post or before the doctors get back to you.  Which can be a curse if you haven't got someone to break it to you with a medical mind.  That's how I found out about my ultrasound results as normally they're really chatty at the scan and this time they were really quiet and just said the results would be back by Monday.  The doctor rang on Thursday and I missed the call initially but the results were available on patient access so by the time she rang back, I knew all about it.  I did feel prepared as I'd had time to absorb it - and was ready with questions whereas if I'd not known, I'd've probably been blindsided and come off the call without having asked stuff and then feeling like I couldn't ring back and ask.

I was able to challenge her over the MRI as she said that would be down to consultants and the GPs aren't usually allowed to request MRIs but I pointed out it specifically said in the letter one was needed regardless so she did capitulate and order it on that basis.  Whereas if I'd not seen the letter in the app in advance, I'd have not known that.  The paper copy still isn't here.

Sorry - realised I unpacked a whole lot there but it's helped getting it down.

Hope you've a lovely weekend planned to keep you occupied?

Huge hug to you 
Rebecca x

Hi Rebecca

I’m so sorry about the amount of loss you’ve had and how it must affect you and your daughter 

my heart goes out to you 

I hope you had a lovely evening and managed to relax and take some time for yourself to indulge in something you enjoy. 

I totally understand the need to be busy when you’re anxious. I work in education and we broke up today for the summer break and although it’s lovely to have time off ( which I’m very grateful to have ) I’m also extremely worried about this worry consuming me 

I had my daughters very young, they’re 33 and 28 so they’ve been a great support 

I divorced my husband two years ago and moved into my own place 

I have a lodger to help with the mortgage but he’s worse than having a husband !!!!! 

I totally understand where you’re coming from in regards to the silence whilst having the ultrasound 

I felt that she was bombarding me with questions regarding menstrual cycles  etc . 

I crumbled today and contacted my drs surgery to ask if the results were back and she said they weren’t and to leave it at least another week 

I hope you sleep well 

Rach x 

Hey 
Hope you had a good weekend.

A lodger that's worse than a husband?? Ouch!

Really sorry to hear the results are going to take longer - and hope Friday's IT drama doesn't delay things further.

I had a CA125 blood test booked and when I turned up reception said they weren't doing any blood tests due to the computer system being down.  Two hours later the phlebotomist rang to ask why I'd missed the appointment because it was urgent so thankfully she insisted I came in at the end of clinic as they'll now have a big backlog this week and that got sent off.  Everyone locally moans about our GP surgery but they've been brilliant with this.

Had an impromptu catch up with one of my good friends yesterday.  We are fostering a second dog at the moment so took our dogs and her five month old puppy off to a secure field so they could all run around together.  Was really nice just to see the dogs and her nine year old having fun - whilst our two 14 year olds skulked about as there was no wifi signal!

Trying to be more positive about it all and just hope that because of the position they just couldn't get a clear view of what I'm praying is another cyst or fibroid and I can move on and have them removed.

Hope you have a good week x

Hiya Rebecca 

awww , it sounds like you had a great weekend and it was a great distraction for you 

it’s so easy to let our minds run away with us but keeping busy definitely helps doesn’t it 

oh jeez ! Of course ! I forgot about the IT drama ! 

It's great that your NHS is on it , 

I agree , I honestly can’t fault them since I went to ED 

things have moved quickly 

I hope you have a good week too 

here anytime if you want a chat 

sending hugs 

Rach x