Hi all...

I feel like I'm going mad...

I found a lump in my left breast around 16 days ago 3 days before I went to Spain I thought it was a fatty lump or due to a period I was on I went to Spain thinking it would go down, on my return it was still there. I saw my GP on return and he referred me instantly on the 10 day pathway although he was pretty sure it was innocent too.

I went to the clinic on Saturday saw a consultant who wasn't very nice initially, she lectured me on being an ex smoker and being a vaper now and told me she believes vaping is just as bad despite my nicotine intake being 3% instead of 20% anyway after she felt my lump she said it felt innocent but would send me for a scan. 

I went for a scan and they instantly said it wasn't a fatty lump they wanted to take a biopsy. I was quite shocked but said that's fine whatever needed to be done, I asked her is this definitely not a fat lump then? She said I'm so sorry but it's really not that. She gave me an envelope and I took it back to the consultant.

She called me in and apologised for her first thought of it being a fatty lump (feel like I'm repeating myself) she said I'm afraid it's cancer I said it can't be I'm only 38 and I've got 4 kids I'm far too busy for all of this. She said we need to wait for the results of the biopsy but it's treatable and you've done the right thing coming when you did. There are no lumps in your lumph nodes which is positive we will know a much better treatment plan in 10 days time.

I feel like the whole thing has been a dream and this isn't happening to me, I have a nightmare of a 14 year old navigating her way through teenage years and 3 other children under 6 I don't know how we will get through this. Equally I have no idea how the consultant can know so much without biopsy results?? 

Has anyone been diagnosed before biopsy results? Do ultra sounds really show up that much information.

Thank-you for reading this far xx